lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Friday, July 31
-9:30 pm
NTUCCF Freshman Orientation Camp 2009 has come to an end.
It was a refreshing experience but a bittersweet one as well - because my brother is down with H1N1 and the both of us had to go back earlier. Refreshing because.. it was a combined camp with the English department. But after this experience, perhaps the opinions which some of us carry hold much truth.
I went with an open mind, hoping to see some value in it and indeed there are. But it seemed that the cons far outweigh the pros of a combined camp. Because he values it, and I truly want to respect the decision so I went into the job and camp with little thoughts of how negative it can be. After going through the camp and discussing them with 'the people of the long table' on Tuesday night, what we see is not what we have hoped to be.
I don't know if it's because of poor planning on our part, or that we didn't pray a lot for the camp (at least it wasn't very frequent for me), or that the dynamics of the such a camp is expected, but it's quite obvious that there are two camps of people, no matter how much we tried to group everyone together. The feeling is like we were being forced in a same space together. We grouped in our comfort zone. :p
Because of opposing opinions and personalities, we have unhappiness amongst us. But I sincerely pray that nothing will go wrong for the two of you. Both are important friends to me, and I can only trust in God to work things through for you two. I may be wishy-washy or siding him (obviously), but it's because he doesn't seem to have anyone by his side to support him. As Grace had said, he was very lonely in this, especially when Elizabeth pointed out that the whole committee was actually not very supportive of this decision.
As for what I have predicted would happen in camp, they did. All the 'paparazzi' actions are so ... uncomfortable for me. My face was black all the time when such things were occurring. But that didn't seem to stop them at all. I don't even dare to get too close to him. I don't know how he feels about it or if he even noticed it, but I'm guessing he's either hiding it well, or just don't care. Haha. But I still think God is still guiding our way. Events that I thought were trouble-promising never occurred.. We will see how things will go on ba. I don't know what kind of feelings should I have to face the days ahead. :p
Saturday, July 25
-10:32 pm
Somehow blogger is not loading right. But who cares. It's better than before when I don't even have the page to write anything.
I have nothing inspirational to write haha.
Just that, on a note about prayers, they work wonders. Trust on the Lord and not lean on my own understanding. Everything I have committed have been answered. I should start making a list of answered prayers so that I will never forget the grace and love and mercy the Lord has given.
Judging from what I have seen for the past few sessions, I figured the coming week will be something to look out for. Good or bad, I can only pray that the Lord will guide our way. :]
MSN chats till late in the morning is definitely not the way to go. -.- I'm so tired now. Haha.
Wednesday, July 15
-11:11 pm
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
Monday, July 13
-11:59 pm
Galations 6: 7-10 (NIV)
7Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.
8The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that naturewill reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.
9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. 10Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.---------------------------
"I donated $1.50 to an auntie to take bus today."
"Aiyoh, you must have been cheated."
Perhaps I was, but perhaps I wasn't. When the auntie first asked if I had coins to exchange, my first reaction was to say no which was what I did, and I didn't even check my wallet. I wasn't happy with my 没有经过大脑的想法. After a while, somehow, I managed to notice that she only had big notes and I did have coins with me so I asked if she wanted to take bus and how much she needed. She wanted $1.50 and I gave her exactly that. After giving her, my spirit was actually uplifted and glad. I asked if God would have like that and truthfully, I think He would be.
Just last saturday, one of the points highlighted by my pastor during my fellowship's bible study was to not underestimate our every little actions because they can have a big impact on others (be it good or bad). Maybe my $1.50 have saved the auntie more torturous asking, or she could make it to her appointment on time or maybe she went to more places to cheat people money (haha). Nonetheless, it probably have saved her a lot of trouble I hope.
Often times, we are cautious of who we are rendering help to - we try to assess their creditability and worth within that short 5-10 seconds upon meeting them. I am guilty of that - I really hate being approached by people to buy stuff or donate money for their causes just because they are from this or that special group of people. But I guess we will have to reflect on ourselves if money is so important in our lives till we forgot to do good to others. I can't say I can break free from that kind of thinking immediately after this sharing but I will try to work on it. :]
With today's sharing and happenings, I'm once again given a glimpse of how God can work in our lives to let us see how He is like. :] Praise Him. Remember to try to do good to others!
-10:05 pm
I feel very accomplished today because I didn't rot at home 24/1!
So far 2 people has 'liked' this comment on FB. 3 actually if you wanna count Cindy's. But anyway, today was really a vast contrast as compared to other days.
I was up by 8.45am to prepare to go to SMU by 10. Left home at 9.15 to take bus and luckily I did because the traffic jam would have been horrendous and I could have been late - then again, not that it mattered a lot because people were still late. -.- Had FOC meeting till about 12.30pm then lunch till 1 plus. Waited for the ECF people (zzz why were they so late? and they weren't very enthu too. -.-). Shopped for all the loggies stuff and made a fuss out of nutella HAHA. In the end, no nutella for FOC breakfast. sadded. I think the CCF people had so much fun shopping, I wanna go shopping with them again. They made a mundane job fun! So we shopped, talked, discussed till near 4 till we split for movie (I wanted to go too!) and peace centre to print some stuff. We walked all the way from PS to Peace Centre then all the way to Bras Basah to Art Friend too! I have visited that place in these past 2 months more than I did for the whole of last year! o.O this year has been very arty-crafty I guessed. HAHA. Then it was to Iluma for small tea session - cheeky cheesecake and chocolate truffle cake and Camomile tea! Yummm. Reached home near 7pm. So I was out for 10 hours! Cool. It's been a while since I have done so much things in one day. Hehe.
All that walking has taken its toil on me. Now I'm like super tired but I think that's also the effect of Camomile tea (which is very tasty!). Hopefully I will have a good night sleep tonight. :]]]
I should be doing some jobs but I'm like super brain dead. I'm going to get Mom to buy Camomile tea sachets. So tasty. Hehe.
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Spoilers ahead.
regarding Harper's Island, I already know what happened. And I was right about suspecting Henry. Oh man. The whole story is so twisted I don't even know if I have the stomach to finish watching the last 3 episodes. It would have been alright if Wakefield was the only killer but nooo, Henry had to be. It was too suspicious for him to be walking around late in the middle of the night with nothing happening to him. What kind of rage must have filled him to just conveniently kill people because they were 'in his way' and to screw and get engaged to another girl even though he was in love with his half-sister. My goodness. Your sister leh. Gross.
Wednesday, July 8
-9:48 pm
I haven't done anything productive today. =.= But I found this!
"Students may place 5 choices each for GERPE and UE on waitlist. They may access STARS from 5.00 p.m. – 10.00 p.m. daily from the day of their registration till Friday 10 July 2009 to add or drop their choices of GERPE and/or UE that they have placed on waitlist."Okay, it's not some big news for everyone but at least it is for me. Because I can right some wrongs. Hopefully, things will go on smoothly this coming academic year. :D
And I'm watching dramas on the TELLY! Oh man. If you know me, I hardly watch anything on the telly because well, nothing good comes out of it. Good as in good shows ya know. HAHA. They are all HK dramas which are seriously much better than locals. -.- And then there are 2 Japanese dramas I'm catching online now.
Now that July is here, there will be meetings, meeting ups (because the exchange students are back) and pre-camps stuff to go for.
Should I go to Bangkok?! Someone please advise. Haiz. She told me to think carefully when I had already told her numerous times that I have responsibilities that I can't put aside once I come back. I have to teach Sunday School the next day and I will be facing 12-15 kids at one go. I don't want them to risk getting the virus from me even though the chances of getting it in Singapore is prolly higher than me exporting the virus back. Then there is church service where there are over 200 people under the same chapel. I have a compulsory training to go for on Tuesday. I can't afford to reschedule all these because it will be very irresponsible. Then again, I'm very gian to go because well I just want to get out of the country. She told me to think carefully but I'd think it's her who doesn't seem to be listening to me. I can't tell her to not go because I want to go too. And she will have to find accommodations last minute and she prolly can't find people to go with her in the end. I can't stand it when she says 'think carefully'. I just have a problem with that because it's as though she's not listening to me at all.
In the end I would prolly go because I just want to get out of the country and SHOP. I have been controlling myself over the GSS. It's probably going to break my heart if I don't get to spend getting new stuff. HAHA.
Rarh.
Alright I'm going to watch telly. :]]
