lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Sunday, December 31
-8:24 pm
All In A Year's Work =]January - started work. super bored. but i kept gettingtreated by co-workers and bosses. =]
Feburary - getting used to work. chinese new year! witha lot more hong baos to get. =]
March - getting A level results. haiz. but it's okay. went for my first ktv with the co peeps. Hahaha. Wrote that dreaded letter. I guess the response wasn'tquite what i was looking for but whatever. we aren't talking now anyway, despite all that thing about "still friends". hurhur. maybe we would be talking if he hadn't gotten a gf but really. I don't care. Always knew he's someone who has the words but doesn't really act them out or maybe it's only to certain people he acts them out. I won't feel so vindictive if he still does keep in contact with OTHER people (it doesn't have to be me), but well, he didn't. So much for not wanting a gf. Does meeting "the one" do this to everyone? it's really a load of bullshit. Applied for the three unis. But heaven knows why i appliedto nus too. Never really liked it all the hell much anyway. maybe it's just for the prestige. haha. Was more conflicted between smu and ntu though. In the end, God led me to ntu. smu didn't want me haha. But i probably wouldn't choose it in the end 'cause he'll be going there. Even though we'll be in different buildings but really, some people you wouldn't want to see too much again after all that.. stuff. Future-would-be roomie called up whether want to be roomies not. haha. I wasn't really keen on it because i knew my mom would not be too happy about it. Actually she's not keen on anything when we left the house. She'd rather we stay at home 24/7 and do household chores for her. lols that's not 100% true but she'd rather us stay at home and keep away from all danger and troubles. She even have some to say when we learnt how to ride a bicycle. -_- never mind that. In the end, she conceded, without much persuasion from my side. Haha. Really i didn't do much saying. She just let me go because that was I wanted, although not without reasons. That i had stated clearly to her. Long distance travelling is such a damper to the mood and energy. It's tiring to travel 3 hours everyday to and fro lor. Very tiring indeed. Imagine sleeping on the train ride back and again back at home because the sleep wasn't good enough? acks. I'd waste more time on that instead of sleeping.
April - The accountant whom i was under was back! After like 2 long months of hiatus. haha. She was on maternity leave la. Her baby is cute though. Wonder how he looks like now. I wonder if she's still in the company anymore. Think she changed her number. hmm. No face to call back the company again too. haha. Not that i did anything wrong but it's just weird to call them back after like how many months of absence? bleh.
May- London and Hong Kong here I come!!!!!!!!!!! My dream finally came true. i'd finally stepped on English soil. Seeing uncle Ben, The Westminister Abbey and all the sights in the movies made me giddy with happiness all day long. I didn't even have jet lag the time i was there. It was fantastic. Shopping and sight-seeing all day long. We even caught stomp! brilliant. I want to go back there again. I have to go back there. It's almost like home there. I really can imagine myself living there. *swoons* My mom once told me that she won't be surprised if i migrated somewhere far from home in the future. (look at all the schools i've been to. They are all far away from home! haha.she'd rather i go nus just because it's nearer and perhaps again, more prestige.) *hearts london*
June - got the acceptance letters. Chose to go to ntu. Went for their various tea parties and such. Repeated the same old stuff over and over again at their open house. arghs. Say something new la. Bleh haha. But well, i guess it's bobian since there might be people who didn't go for any of such introduction thingy. And then there was the june camp. hmmm. First time on batam. nothing much to shop. Again. -__-;; Two years consecutive. Bah. Didn't spend much there even though the polo tees were quite famous. (but actually they were imitations, A grade they are.) Anyway, experience of boat riding again after at least 10 years. Last time i was on a boat/cruise was when i was nine if i'm not wrong. Wahaha. That was really a long time ago.
July - Rotted at home even though i wanted to find a job. But then it was just weird to apply for one that's only a month long. besides there were all these orientation camps to go to. Went for the ccf one. Had a not bad time. haha. Got to know some fellow christian friends whom i know i can turn to in times of need. But unfortunately, sprained my elbow. Couldn't go to hall's camp. abit sadded by it. haha. Had to leave roomie all along in that room for the entire week. Or actually weeks to come. Didn't officially move in like quite some time later. but ah well. loneliness to come for the next few weeks too since i didn't know anyone in hall and she was busy with pageant rehearsals for the first few weeks of schools.
August - school starts! it was rather exhilarating experience. haha. new faces, newtype of schedules and everyone in plain attire. no uniform in sight. though i did spot one a few weeks later. acjc's at that by a njcian. haha. friend of mine. but anyway, first few lectures were a little lonely. had to sit by myself, said hi to some familiar faces - not sitting with them because they already had a large group all by themselves. weird to intrude no? things got better after tutorials started. found a core group of friends to mix with. =] turned out there were 3 of us who stayed in the same hall! what are the odds man! hahaha. i mean like 80+ psychology students with probably at least 1/3 not stayingin hall, spreading out to 16x4=64 blocks around ntu, seriously, what are the odds? ^^yays. i like school to start.
September - hmmm nothing much. just basically getting into the swing of things ie hall living and studying consistently for school. argh i really hope to get into the habit of doing things consistently and not leaving them till the last minute. i've a phd in procrastination. someone ought to save me from it. haha. hmm anything big? hmm.. not that i can remember of. oh, perhaps that hype over goong. i was like che, i finished watching it. hahahahahhaah.
October - hmm.. wedding!!! haha. got to know a long distance "cousin" in hall. coincidence? who knows. all in god's plan. i don't wanna care. after getting over this excitement to have a relative in hall, i've calmed down haha. perhaps i was too excited over him. been able to see him in a relatively objective view, maybe it'll just be fine to leave him as"relative" status ba. haha. if anything is to happen, well, it'll happen. so's with any other guy i know from anywhere. don't be too worried about my shelf-life, even though i myself will get too nervous about it. oh and through him and another, got to know more guys from the block haha. so cool. then i got to go out with them for suppers! yays! but it's just always me one girl and many guys. oh well, as long they don't mind. because i seriously don't really know much girls in block other then roomie and BY. the rest arej ust all hi-bye kind of acquiantences. maybe LE will be someone to get to know with since zc knows her..
November - argh!!! the exams. hahahhaahahah. man, thought it'll be quite all right with all the "consistent" readings i had been doing since the beginning of the semester, but heck, there was just too much to remember for HP 101. and all the other modules. gawd. it was horrible man the mugging. headaches and more headaches. lols. but am i glad it was all over on the last day. =D and my paper was like on the last few days when people had finished around a day or two earlier. sighs. but at least that one last paper wasn't too hard since i could go out for supper in geylang. oh and that other dreaded letter. sighs. that was a bad experience. but i guess it made me more conscious of her needs and paid more attention to her. and to the rest too. somehow, i suddenly thought about nana. (the anime) it's an anime that talked about how fate can bring two unknowing people together, how people needs one another, and what they had do to maintain/keep/get that relationship they craved. ah. profound thoughts to leave it for another time.
December - Got back results! Yays I'm happy for it! It's pretty fantastic. Heh. *Beams* Okay la, fantastic to me. At least the first step is in the right path. =] And I went for more shopping and vistied Vivocity. It's blardy huge. Gawd, but then there's prolly just all to it ba. Whatever you can find in town, you can find it there. So if the shops in town don't have the stuff you want, just pop down to Vivo lor, or vice versa. The thing about it is just to navigate your way around. It can be a little confusing. Haha. All right heading for countdown party liao. Byebyes. Till next year! =] (which is just 3 hours away. Hahahha.)
Monday, December 25
-11:53 pm
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!
nah not too late yet. But even if I'm late, I'm just late according to Singapore time. *smirks*
Had dinner over at grandmother's place yesterday and it was ALMOST full attendence. One day I should really take a photo of how that little flat in AMK can squeeze 50 over people. People were squeezing in the couches, littered around the floor or just sitting round the table chatting about the latest ... whatever they were talking about. (I was more involved with the people on the floor.)
Enough said. I love my big big family. =]
Although we always talked about the same stuff ie where are you studying now, what are you studying etc, but well, at least we have the opportunity to interact and know each other. I can't imagine not knowing any of my cousins. It's just so lonely without knowing there's family around you somewhere. Especially so during festive seasons like these. I know there are your immediate family and friends but aunties/uncles and cousins have.. well another sort of feel. They are family but yet not so immediate. Their identity is (to me) something like a middle ground between family and friend. Not so there and not so here. Hmm if you get what I mean. Haha.
Oh well. Back to Hana Kimi. Wu Zun's from Brunei by the way. He's cute. But I know if I mention that to YS she'll say she bagged him first, he's HERS etc like what had happened regarding JJH. Gah, I finished Goong way before anyone I knew and liked him ever since. Just because I didn't mention it doesn't mean I didn't notice. But whatever. This over-the-head craziness for them don't last long anyway. For me and her. Besides another Farenheit guy caught my eye. Please let him act in some show or go to some variety programme to let me get to know him more. Haha. Then maybe I can "claim" him for all I want. =]
But Jude Law is still there. On da throne. I have a thing for British guys. It must be their accent.
Thursday, December 21
-1:02 am
JUDE LAW!!!
Caught The Holiday today.
Enough said no?
I was okay with the story. Christmasy, feel-good kind. But Love Actually is still better. =] But like I said to H, Jude Law made it all better. Way more better. *sighs*
Tuesday, December 19
-6:48 pm
ARGH it's raining like nobody's business. (Actually yeah, it's really nobody's business) But cripes, it's been raining for the past 24+ and still counting hours. Whatever is happening to the world!! I know it's the christmas and rainy season in singapore, but this is surely a big damper on the festive mood!! Can't even have a decent outing without worrying about rain. Hopefully the skies will let up tomorrow. I want to have a good outing with K they all. It was raining so heavily this morning that I almost put off going for tuition in Admiralty because it was going to be such a bother going out. Imagine getting wet just because of the huge downpour and not because I was too lazy getting an umbrella. So unworthy of all the hassle. Thankfully it let up some when time came for me to move. It poured AGAIN when I reached tutee's house. -__- But it let up a little again when I left for home! =] Really I'm not joking. Praise God. Heh.
Anyway, regarding the camp that concluded recently, it was fun. =]]]] Maybe because it was so slacked. We got to buy dinner ourselves (because M could drive out), went out for shi zhi lu kou and saved a whole lot of money, no stupid performance to prepare for and basically a whole lot of SLACK time. Heck, even our group names were phrases for taking a break. Ie: take 5, break, slack. There were sermons of course, but they were alright. Think I gained alot from the speaker, C although some stuff seemed a little repetitive. Hmm. AND most importantly, he wasn't as BORING as we thought he would. He was peppering his speech with english, singlish, hokkian and mandarin. Which I guess helped him to gain rapport with us. If he had bombarded us with theological knowledge, without any doubt, all of us would have been in lala land sooner than anyone could say boring. Haha. Hmm.. I don't mind him coming again to talk to us. Haha. Provided it's something us. Guess this will make me more attentive to his sermons when he comes over to church as a guest preacher. He's not all that bad. =] And I can see why he's respected very much by some people. C is very knowledgable and wise. He has great vision and very Christ-centred. It's no wonder he has so much influence.
But then, why doesn't that influence seem to rub off in a good way??
Thinking of the session yesterday, think it pissed off alot of people. It isn't fair to make empty promises and bringing people's hopes up when you do not have the full authority to do what you want and think you can do. Give a reasonable explanation and don't lie. For pete's sake, we aren't children who doesn't know what we are doing. Maybe immature and unschooled in the adult's business world or whatever you call it, but don't try to lie. We are educated and we know. Haiz. Whatever.
Wednesday, December 13
-9:44 am
I'm reading Paulo Coelho's "The Devil and Miss Pyrm". It's talking about the existence of Good and Evil and the struggle people are always in between the two. So far so good. =]
Borrowed so many books for the holidays. I really doubt I can finished them all. But then again, I've till 3rd of Jan to finish and I've nothing on for the next few weeks. I might finish them all after all. That is if I do not spend time on the computer. Haha.
So the Officers Commissioning Parade did came out in the papers. There we were thinking if the photos would really be featured with an article with so many photographers around. Haha. Thought they were just for show and all. S said that it was the 2nd grandest event after the National Day Parade. I supposed it is since it was presided over by the President himself. No other event has required him to do so other than NDP. Anyway, the officers had to sing damn loudly la. Haha, so funny to hear them sing songs dated back to primary school in their voices. Loud too since everyone could hear. Wonder if they felt paiseh about it initially. But after that, it gets a little boring till they marched past the grand stand. Everyone was clamouring at the side to catch a glimpse of their boy who was secretly hiding a smirk/smile when they too try to find their loved ones from the corner of their eyes. The dinner was fine. Seriously. Indian food. Met some ZH people and found out quite a number of them made it to OCS. Not every unexpected la those few.. Heh. And after the dinner, we had to rot around for 1 hr plus because the officers and their parents were having a 6 course dinner! Bad preparation sia. How can make us wait like that. Not like there were any entertainment or something haha. Ah wells, but at least this parade is something I probably would never have a chance to go to again. (Hopefully my brother can make it then I probably have a chance at the 6 course dinner! =]) Might as well enjoy abit hahaha.
Going off for camp later. Haha, the annual fellowship camp. Probably won't be too xiong but I hope the jiang zhuos will be interesting even they do not coincide with the themes we set. Wonder if he has taken into account of that when he was thinking of the topics to talk about. =p And I need to start thinking of whether to shi feng in CCF. Hmm..
Wednesday, December 6
-12:33 am
I finally slept last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ehem.
As I was saying, I finally had a good sleep last night. =D Just went out like a light within 5 minutes after saying a night prayer. It has been so long since I last had this feeling. 4 nights to be exact. Haha. If you don't know the stress for not being able to fall asleep, well, good for you la. If you had experienced it before, you know how I feel. Gosh. But it made me even sleepi-er today. Sleep debt is accumulating ba..
Returned to my tuition assignment today too. Haiz, there was some improvement in the subjects that I taught him but for him to reach the expectations I think the parents have secretly for him, it's kinda hard. He was only aiming for the barest minimum. I remembered back in P6, I wanted to go to Anderson Sec - which needed a score of at least 247. So I was a little shocked to hear his intended score. Then at the back of my mind, I started to think perhaps it was just my expectations for him to score very well. This goes to the other kids I know. I thought that everyone is able to score somewhere near or even beyond my score range but in reality they didn't. Take my 2 cousins. They didn't do as well as I thought they would - with all the tuitions they had over the years. I was appalled. Really. Goes to show how narrow-minded I can be.
Monday, December 4
-12:18 am
"Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty."- John 6:35I haven't been sleeping properly this past few days. It's getting on my nerves. Gah. After studying about sleep and all that in psy, I think it aggravates my stress for not getting into REM sleep. I don't know where the stress is coming from. haiz. It's either because of the results (which is probably coming out in late december I heard) or because of my extracted wisdom teeth (took 2 out last thursday). Can't wait for my normal life to be back. I want sleep.
Sleep is good, so I said to everyone. =]
Anyway, about the tooth extraction, it wasn't as painful as I thought it would be. Sure there was some trouble eating initially, but I felt no pain leh. Serious. My mother was pissed that I didn't tell her I was going to get my teeth extracted. Wanted me to find out the price first so she was damned pissed to know that it cost 400 odd to have both teeth taken out. But it turned out that to have all 4 teeth taken out in under $1000 is CHEAP. Bah. Should tell her that next time. Anyway, the dentist took a look at my mouth and was pretty mortified. Not by the condition of the plaque on my teeth but rather by my torned gum. Acks. Didn't know it was so bad. Just knew that it was painful while the tooth was growing. So after 3 hours of wait, x-ray-ing, extraction and sitching, I finally left the clinic. With much relief and numbness. So scared that I would embarrass myself by drooling on the right side of my mouth.
Took my teeth back. Think I should disinfect them and clean them before taking any pictures ba. Haha. They are in perfect condition, no breakage at all. =]
I think you are just over-rated.
