Sunday, October 31
-10:50 pm
Wanted to end October on a happy note, but NOOOOO.. I just couldn't do it. You know why? Because I found out that my Sectional Leader (SL) wants to hop over to play gao yin sheng, (an instrument in CO, it's something like a piano/organ thingy.) What the hell.. She's supposed to be the SL, and now she wants to go over to another section? And you know what, my instrument group has two newbies who your sincerely is also included. By the term newbie, everyone should know that they are not proficient in playing a song just by looking or by only a few practices. They will require tons and I mean tons of practices. I'm quite comfortable with my playing but my partner ain't. Then there is this other girl who is suppose to be helping us for SYF, but she is not appearing for practices due to council stuff. So am I going to be shouldering all the liuqin part on my own as of now? If this is your way of getting me to become independent, it's going to get backfired. The more I stress out, the more "lan" I'm going to play. This is ridiculous! I am wondering the praise for me is a step that is required to get yourself out into the Chui Da section and I wonder if Cornelius is the main reason why you want to move over to the sheng instrument.
I don't have anything against couples. Nothing at all. But if they are able to just leave promises scattered because of this significant other, I am going to be pissed. I don't mind you going to the other section if I AM capable of handling on my own. The thing is I can't and you are leaving. Have you spare a thought for me and Amelia? Or let's just look at the big picture, the entire Tan Bo section? We have Yan Bing, we have Xinni. Fine, but remember, they are zhong ruan players, not liuqin. Kellie hasn't make a appearance even though she had agreed to help out. Maybe, just maybe I am able to improve on my own in this way, but what about Amelia? She's so far back, though she is trying hard to catch up. Gah..
I know I have no right to get pissed when someone has to change plans to with me to accommodate with their significant other, I have no right at all. I have done that too, many times, though they are not my real significant others. But I think I would have weight the odds first before making any decisions. Now, the odds are too great for her to let go of liuqin.
What the hell.. I don't care anymore. Just treat it as a big case of whining. I haven't whine since don't know when. Let's just see what next year has in store for us. Good nitey.
Friday, October 29
-11:10 pm
I'm finally sick.. Gastric pain. Damn it.
Be careful of what you wish for people. You may not get what you want. -sighs-
Did I mention what my role is in the "Hu Gao" family of SACO? Hmm, let's see.. Chyi Yueh is my great grandmother who changes her partner once in every while. She has four daughters namely Liting, Limin, Chu Hui and Sharon. These four daughters then adopted two guys, Kenneth and Yuqing. They spawned Hester, me, Liwen, Wee Long, and Ling. Yuqing, my supposedly mother is having a les relationship with me. My husband is Melvis who is infertile. Haha. Anyway, there's a faery-turn-frog, Pey Ling, who desperately needs Melvis for something which no one knows is what. Pey is also Limin's precious. Because Melvis is infertile, Pey got a sperm from the sperm bank and they spawned Lorraine. Hester's husband is Ken. Their girls are Jaclyn, Yijun and someone whom I can't remember. Jaclyn has a mysterious boyfriend. Hester is also having an affair with Ignatius. However, Ignatius is having an affair with Yin Yin too. Think they gave birth to someone. Liwen and Cornelius are together. Don't know who their children are. Anyway, Fei Ling and Wee Long are together. Aaron is their son. This son is pretty flirtatious too. His wife is Mei Shan and together they have Xing Zhi, Xiao Hui and Xiao Ling as their daughters. Aaron is also having affairs with lotsa people, I can't remember. I think it's Yi Jun. Ling Ling is with this band guy who is in her class. Her marriage is under the category of "scandalous" as there's rivalry between CO and Band. Haha. This is pretty much of what I remembered. There's lotsa more complicated arrows running around the family tree. You have got to visit the CO room to see it, it's on the white board. It's damn funny lar. Just love the people there to bits. They really have got nothing else better to do..
O and A levels are coming up. People study hard yeah? It's the last leg of the race liao. Jia you Jia you!! =D
Tuesday, October 26
-8:52 pm
Gosh, I haven't been blogging since like don't know when and there's so much that happened. Hmm, I think I'll try to sum it all up..
Let's see, on Saturday, we had SA open house!! Hehe. Not very excited about it, don't know why. Maybe it's 'cause I have this feeling that not a lot of those whom I know will come. Besides, it would be mostly the sec 4s who would be coming and I don't know alot of sec 4s in Zhonghua. Ben said there were alot who came and I did recongised some familiar faces, especially that short short guy, can't remember his name though, Sean I think.. Well, anyway, had a performance early in the morning. Hmm, did quite ok. Didn't screw up the song (not like I can do much to screw it up =P) except for the last one. Missed the notes, which became a little frantic for my fingers for that little part of the song. At least I did better than my last real musical performance with an instrument. And that was way way way back in Primary 2 with my violin ---> now rotting in my storeroom. Heh. Come to think of it, I kinda miss it. Wanted to take it up again but thinking of the additional cost that will be incurred.. Oh wellies.. We got discriminated by band and dance!!!! Sooky if you are reading this, can you tell me what is band and dance collaborating together to ostracize CO??!?!? There's no level 2 in Jacob Ballas Performing Arts Centre is it???!?!? Haha, I was exaggerating, don't worry about the exclamation marks and question marks. =) Despite of that we did manage to get a few 'cats' up into CO room to look around and check out the instruments. It will be a dry season next year, just hope we'll get enough juniors around to get the numbers for the SYF performance.
Sunday: initially there was supposed to be spring cleaning for me, in church that is. But I ponned. Haha, kinda guilty 'cause I signed up myself in the first place. But hey, since my brother wanted to leave first and I couldn't do more than an hour before I had to go, might as well I left. And so I did. Had to prepare for the evening's wedding dinner of my cousin. Cut my hair before it. IT WAS HORRIBLE!!! Gah, I hate my hair now. Wish I could just shave it bald, then tie a bandana. How cool can that get sia? Haha. (I look so old now.. -.-!) Ok, the dinner was at Raffles Hotel! You know the one opposite Raffles City? The one which Michael Jackson used to stay in when he was in Singapore that long time ago? That 3 storey building with colonial architecture? Yeah that one. It is just Class, with a capital C. My goodness. Almost every woman there was in gown and I felt so sua ku in my attire. =P I seriously need new clothes. Anyway, the bride was radiant and beautiful and so was the groom. Everything was just sooooo expensive! But omg, the dessert was heavenly!!! It was some sort of chocolate cake with forest berries ice-cream. It's pure oiishi!! My dear cousin had finally found his bride. His mom had waited for this day for soooooo long. One of his brothers too had finally found a girlfriend. Seriously, if these cousins of mine who are well over their 30s take so long to find someone they love, I wonder how we youngsters of today can actually say we will love someone now and forever? It's pretty maddening to examine the logic yeah? Oh did I mention the dessert was fantastic?
Lecture timetabling continued for the last two days, inclusive of today. Boring. So much information to take it and I just wanna chop off my head. It feels so heavy despite me having such short hair. -.- Liqi and gang arh, don't pon any more lessons le, or else I think Ms Ho is really gonna blast at your liao. Know your limits man. And I dun wanna carry your notes around in my bag. Heh. Yups.
I shall voice my sentiments about PW again. It sucks! Just one more week and I'm gonna be free from its torturous chains. Freedom shall be mine again. Muhahahahahahahah! (that's so fanatic.)
Saturday, October 23
-8:03 pm
I am truly passionate. Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.
You're excited about life and in touch with yourself and nature. Tell me, do I have this straight?
Virtues: You appreciate humor like none other. Puns might even spark laughter in you (TEHY R FUNNI). You seek adventure and connection with your surroundings. You seek friends who will not only share laughs with you but actually form a deep bond of trust and empathy beneath the surface. You look for adventure and courage in people, and variation is necessary to keep you under control. You see yourself as multi-faceted, so you need people who can see you in your many lights. You're constantly trying to figure yourself out while analyzing the people around you. Silly, silly people.
Aspirations: You can't decide what you want to be yet, but you know you want it to be adventures and interesting, with constant changes. You don't know what love will do for you yet, but it's competing with adventure for a place in your heart. An internal conflict has begun: can you be a successful worker, lover, and parent all at once?
Quirks: Noise of any sort is irritating when you're in the mood. Smacking gum, loud chewing, humming- it's about as pleasing as bodily noises. You dislike emaciated people because of jealousy and just plain disgust. You're a procrastinator but a hard worker, too.
Factors: You need constant attention and support. You're high-maintnence, but a great, reliable friend. Nature needs you and you need nature; it's helped thus far, so keep in touch with the outside world.
Future: Who knows! You absolutely need constant change, so vacationing is surely in the cards. Will you settle down or not? Love will find you eventually, as it does to everyone. Will you choose the sweet home life or the rewarding busy-bee life?
Thursday, October 21
-11:10 pm
I abhor PW. The whatever-organization-that-make-words should just come up with a new word to describe the intense dislike people have for PW or maybe something -phobic for PW, because I am seriously developing a phobia for it. Besides, it is going to be scrapped off soon. What the... But when I grumbled this to Paul, he said something really good. Might as well we suffer now than the future generations. [Well, he was speaking in light of someone else too]. And that make alot of sense. -sighs- It's only for 2 more weeks and liberation shall be mine. [And everyone else too.]
Spent the night over at Audrey's to chiong out the presentation. Really started doing it at 9pm larh. Haha. Had fun. Was very well-taken care of by her family members, felt so paiseh at times. Audrey and Melvis were sick, Thomas on the verge of and me? Feeling pretty strong due to the daily dose of 2 capsules of cod liver. However, that wasn't the case as I woke up this morning. Kinda sickly with the coughing. Flu virus is out again people, take good care of yourselves yah? Dryrun today was screwed. Wasn't prepared at all. Fumbled, mumbled and bluffed our way through. The others were not bad though, their presentations were colourful and had lotsa pictures. Ours was too... Formal I guess. My fault. Thought that will be the way the assessors will prefer. Turned out as long as you get your point across, anything is fine.
Bel is sick and tired of our class, for not listening to instructions, for not being obedient, for being just plain ignorant and bo cham (can't find the english equivalent). Yeah, quite true. I agree with that. Because I'm part of that too. Bel, just let it go, must know that not everyone will listen to everything. Just do your part, whether they followed or not, is already their business. You gonna be damn stressed out if you keep worrying about it and you know that stress bring about illnesses which your body cannot tahan anymore with all those current viruses and germs that are happily residing in your body now. Have a care yeah?
Sometimes I am damn sick of my existence. I know I shouldn't say this but it just plainly is. I am just too blardy sensitive to a fault. Keep thinking of how people will perceive my words, my actions, my gestures. Keep second guessing their thoughts. Keep worrying what I have done/said may just somehow hurt/pissed/horrified/ them. All these confusion and insecurities are making me not myself. Sometimes I wonder who is the real me?
I am seriously having a case of lost identity.
Some people may think that I am flattering myself, like I am so great to hurt an inch of them. But some are really just as sensitive as well, they take every word to heart, even if it wasn't meant for them. Sick little flames of guilt always wrapped themselves up around my heart as I see the crestfallen faces of my friends who may have overheard my comments. I don't mean them. In fact, they were only just meant for myself because I set higher expectations for myself. When I don't think I did well, I really don't think so. So just ignored me the next time when you hear me complaining about stuff. Maybe the friendship may have sprouted thorns along the way now, but no matter what scars you and I have gain while travelling through this little journey, I hoped the lessons learnt will be valuable.
Realities of the world are harsh. I don't want to be part of it. I just want to be cocoon in my little warped world of animes and mangas. God is there too. I wish to be alone sometimes. I need to recharged. I don't want to be perfect. I don't want to be the little girl whom everyone pats, saying she is a good daughter, demure and passive. In short, I wanna run away from this game of life. It doesn't interest me. This sounds like a warning alarm for depression.
But no... I can't. Cuz God put me here for a reason, a purpose, one that I have yet to find. I don't know why I am the way that I am. Is this to my fault? Will it be too late to change? I want to change. I want to know how to handle this large patch of grey area. I want to take charge of my life. I am a fatalist in the sense that I know God has planned everything for me, but the ending will largely depend on my choices in life. I want to know how to enjoy life. I want to know how to be person-smart, street-smart, life-smart and not book-smart. The game of life doesn't only involve an individual. Unfortunately, it's about the entire community. I want to change. I don't want to fall under the devil's charms.
Lastly, I want to be loved and to love.
"Life is about change, sometimes it's painful, sometimes it's beautiful, but most of the time it's both." Lana Lang, Smallville.
Monday, October 18
-1:33 am
Looks like Blogger ate up almost everyone's blog entry as of my current 12.33am, yesterday. Blogger has never been reliable, thinking to change over to another host people, hmm? But you just can't leave all these past entries just like that can you? All your thoughts, be it thoughtful, happy, fuming or desolute, all these that are tiny fragments of you. Gambatte yo people! Let's just tahan Blogger for the next few months before thinking of changing your blog ehs? Heh.
Did PW today. Damn sian. Oral Presentation just sucks. Having a dryrun this thursday and thank goodness, almost everything has been settled. Have you guys heard? PW is gonna be scrapped off as a admission criteria or even as a cirrculum subject in like 2006? What the heck?! I don't know if this is true or not, but if it is really is, and if the grade I'm getting for PW is like damn sucky, I foresee myself quitting school for a year to work and then enter school the following year. Seriously, no point making myself lose out just because of a lousy PW grade.
There is CO practice later today. Kenneth's birthday outing tomorrow. Ying Shing is having land training on her birthday - how wonderful.. Aik Tat's birthday today, haven't even send him his present yet larh. So good of me. :P Hey Aik Tat, if you are reading this, don't be mad yah?
All right, signing out. Cheerios.
Saturday, October 16
-9:52 pm
If I'm ever to get a boyfriend, I will think that my friends will suffer.
From broken promises. Broken by me.
I always have scoffed at the sight of my friends being so clingy to their other half, as though they cannot live without them, which is true for some of them but thank goodness, not all. I mean, they don't belong to each other, in all sense. In my opinion, not even exclusively. Each has their own circle of friends, their own agendas, their own world which they have built before even
knowing each other's existence. Why the need to change, to conform to the other? Especially when you
know you cannot fit into it? I never did understand. I'm a quite an independent person, and doesn't like to be possessed. If he can't give me the freedom I crave, then I think I will run away from him, just as said by my pisces nature.
However, reflecting on my behaviour today, I think I can see it clearly now, especially in their point of view. Not that they are clingy, just that they want to spent more time with that special someone. Memories with this someone will be more precious, but the ones with close friends are no less special. Maybe it is because you never know how long will you be with with this person, just don't know how much time you guys will have left. And there is this phrase "friends are forever", that is why you can decide that "as long as I go to the next gathering, they will forgive me". Then there is also this mentality that you want to be on your best in front of your significant other. So dressing up is a must. Therefore spending money to spruce yourself up is inevitable and hence the "I have no money to pay for her present, so let's ask more people to share to cut down the individual's share".
So at long last, I finally can put a reason behind all that quotations. Then there's this part of me I have come to concede to: I like to know what is going on in my significant other's life, even it may be as boring as watching the grass grow by 0.1cm per day. Possessive? Yeah. Quite ironic huh? Don't like to be possessed, but possessive. On the other hand, I don't think I have an iron grip. I believed that however you treat others, it will be how others treat you [there's something about this in the bible, can't remember the exact quote; others will term this as karma.]. So if I don't want the other half to keep track of me, then I wouldn't/shouldn't do it to him too. However, I will not know how I will fare in this department known as relationship since I haven't been into one in a real sense. I don't know how differently I will treat my friends and him if such a situation is to arise. But looking at now, I think I will treat him more importantly than my friends. The equation can never be balanced as long as there is a "him" in it. Feelings will always play a larger role than logic.
-sighs- I fear for my tomodachis.
And no, I do not have a boyfriend nor a crush. Maybe just some feelings, but they can be easily crushed whenever he does something that irritates/allow me to roll my eyes at/frustrates me.
By the way, when one starts to have dreams that are pretty violent in nature, i.e: war scenes, mafia, killings, and so forth, what does that imply? And these dreams just came out of the blue, with no previous memory of watching violent shows, lyrics, music, or texts. Anyone?
Thursday, October 14
-3:44 pm
Ever felt that "so near yet so far" feeling, in particular to a special someone? I am now. It's kinda depressing. Remaining stagnant in fear of spoiling that fragile relationship. Don't know what to do because it is like everything between the two of you are in shades of gray. Maybe it is just wishful thinking from my part, in fact I think it is only me. What do I want from you? It has only been two months, but I am so used to your presence. I really just wished someone can spell it out all clearly to me. Hate to play games. However, if it is really spelled out so explicitly, nothing will ever be the same again.
Why can't life be simpler? Only in black and white.
But that is why life is sometimes so interesting to be immersed in.
Wednesday, October 13
-11:24 pm
Gah! I forgot something... NJ peeps, I'm sorry to inform you that I may not be able to make it to this saturday's open house! Need to be down for banner painting for my CCA. I'm sorry!!!!!!! I'll try to make it.. And Hui Ming, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! =D
-10:37 pm
All right people, I'm here to blog about today and yesterday. Hope you guys will be prepared for a long entry. Heh.
12/10/2004
Nothing much, except for PW. Borrowed a laptop from the library and squeezed in one corner of the room to do it. But then, the room was fricking hot, there wasn't any air conditioning available as the J2s were having their farewell assembly then. Oh well, it was their last assembly there, shan't be so petty. Heh. Anyway, we decided that no way we were going to be sitting there for the next 3 hours or so to complete our report, so we went to the cafe. Not to our surprise, the one and only plug there had been used by another PW group. On to the balcony we went, almost all usable plugs had been occupied. -.- And the rest had their switches spoiled. What the.. Became nomads for about 15 minutes, poor Melvis had to carry around the laptop for us. Heh. Decided to chance our luck in the reading room, and thank God, we found one! Finally, we could finish our report in a cool cool environment while our classmates sweated it out in that hot hot room. =P Had an early lunch. Took a photo with Yuqing. Went for teacher's concert!
It was totally hilarious!!!! Oh man, those who didn't go missed out. And I mean alot!! The first act was damn good larh! Mr Koh singing "That Thing You Do" He was so retro!!!!!! He had his finger up pointing into the air, like the late Elvis. Haha, we should just enter his class next time singing that, suggested Yit Shan. Heh. I so totally agree. Hm, there's chemistry tutorial tomorrow, shall we do that? Hehe. Ms Joyce Chua was up next, she was hot! Haha, not that I know her very well (J2 teacher), but she's good lo.. Sexy singing sia, sizzling hot. WhooHoo! Wonder how many guys melted that day. LoL! Anyway, after the retro programme, the subsequent ones were not really as good. The presentation from the P.E department was damn cool, so egoistic as well, but in a good way. Hehs. Can't remember any of their quotes, or what they have written there. However, it's just damn quirky and hilarious. Was seriously tramutised by Mrs Kang's dancing (not her singing, not that bad actually). She was like flapping her skirts around, like those can can girls, though not as provacatively as them, and acting so young larh.. [She hardly acts her age and she was voted the best dressed teacher even she wore purple and red... -.-!!] However, the dress she had on yesterday was the best she had ever wore.. Thank goodness she had got some taste left. "Shackles" was also great. =D The teachers did that for Rapture too, but I was too far from the stage to see it clearly then. Well, hehe, it wasn't as bad as I thought. All right, so all in all, I don't regret buying tickets for the concert, but it was just a tad too expensive. I found a teacher whom now I admired alot: Ms Jillian Lee. She dances, drums, sings, exercises and teaches. One word to sum it up, ZAI!!
So that's about it, basically.
13/10/2004
Rather boring day too. Went for the handicraft workshop that I signed up for. Found out that it was damn difficult initially, but once you get the hang of it, it's fine. The equipment don't come cheap. It's $5 (market price) something for that single shutler which is needed to do tatting, so as to guide the string around. Actually all handicrafts are quite expensive to sustain as a hobby. You will need threads, needles and what nots. Constantly looking out for new patterns and designs to indulge yourself into. (Well, so is a manga collection =P)
Turned out that Gomes won 3 golds out of 5 games for today's inter-house games. Hehe!!! And one of the teams was from my class!! We participated in softball! Whoohoo!! Gomes rocks! Too bad the soccer team lost. Those Romanis players who played rough!! Grr.. Hope you will get your retribution soon. >.<
CO practice in the afternoon. Getting more and more in touch with my instrument, which is great. =D Haiz, but I still need a lot more practise, and I mean alot... So we played songs, gossiped, select designs for banner and rotted. Played basketball with Pey Ling, Hester, Ling Ling, Ken, Kenneth and Melvis. I don't know why, but during the first half of the game I kept laughing, everything they did especially Pey Ling was chao funny. Maybe cause they didn't know the rules, so like it's so blur for them. Well, anyway, it wasn't a real workout, just sweated alot. -sighs- Hester injured herself: scrapped knees. Tripped over Melvis apparently. Went to wash the wound with her and soon she couldn't even walked properly. I find Hester is very positive-minded in a way that, she didn't bitch about the wound larh. Not only in this matter larh, but in every aspect of her life. She is just so positive/optimistic/innocent/simpleminded, is almost like a little child who has not been tainted by the ugliness of the world. As many said, ignorance is bliss. So, she was sent back home by her mother, wonder how is she going to come school tomorrow.. Went back with Kenneth. Hmm, both of us were pretty tired, didn't had as much conversation as previous times. Nowadays, I don't even bother to rebuke him, so tiring. =P
Ah, the pleasure of not having the J2s to fight over the cafe's tables and chairs. =D
Yeah, I've got to go. So tired, so so very tired. =.=
Monday, October 11
-11:38 am
School's over. Such a bore, just came here to watch cultural performances and the SA Music Awards. Boring boring!!
Oh wells, at least I get to appreciate latin music. Which is good, as a matter of fact damn good. Haha. Learnt stuff I think are interesting, but most people were pretty bored by it. =P I'm going to go download some of the songs they performed. Heh.
I'm feeling pretty weird now cause I'm typing in the library and I'm just so not used to having people walking around whilst I typed. So weeiirrrddd~
SA Music Awards further concrete my belief in that singing on reality tv or live just plain sucks. UNLESS that person or group is so confident of themselves. If they just come for fun or what, I'm sorry, I don't think I can make it through when you are slaughtering my favourite songs. Please try to be better before coming up.
This sounds so harsh. But seriously, who wants to listen to slaughtered songs? Maybe you can say it's nerves but shouldn't the adrenaline pulls you through? I think they will. Ah, that's just me.
I'm going to go off now, seriously weird to have people around while typing..
Saturday, October 9
-1:14 pm
I'm bored. Post exams blues. What is there to do? At least I'm going out with Keni! Yea! I'm not going to be crammed up in the house, with nothing to do except the computer which hang like every half a second if I'm downloading something. The telly is boring too, nothing to watch except for Smallville, Jie Da Huan Xi, Punk'd, and the occasional animes.
Hmm, suddenly I feel I'm into outdoor activities. Must be the 62 influence. Lala.. Heh.
Well, I'm gonna go clean up my room soon, it's littered with notes, books, bags and what nots. So messy. I want a new cupboard!! To store all my mangas and notes and books and bags and soft toys. But no. Damn study room, with its books and cupboards that are filled with old old books which are from my elder brother's secondary school years. (He's in the army now!) Throw all that away!!! I want to have the cupboards to myself!!
So that I will not suffer under my mom's tirade for my untidy room.
Thursday, October 7
-10:38 pm
Heh, went to sentosa today. Played volleyball, ultimate frisbee. Gossiping. Just love interacting with 62. We may have cliques which are just unavoidable, but we are able to talk without getting a B.F (Bitch Fit - White Chicks). Haha.
Come to think of it, we really do have a wide range of girl types. If there is ever such a term. Hmm, we have the intellectuals, the sporties, the soon-to-be tai tais, the sweeties, the elegants, you name it we got it. The two guys in our class sure are blessed. They get to know what kind of girls to steer clear from, to want in their future leading ladies.
Well, just one sentence to sum up my feelings for today. I just love 62 to bits. (Hmm, maybe not that much la, but well this class is one of the best I have ever get into. =D) Just make sure all you guys turn up for every future class gatherings. Hehe.
-1:34 am
I knew it.. I just know it.. Blogspot has once again eaten up my post. Damn it.
Summary:
1:Promos is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2: Chemistry was quite ok. Maths was a bitch. Passing is gonna be a joke.
3: Caught White Chicks. Laughed my ass off. Watch it to get a life, or least to get the momentum right, especially after this exam period. =)
4: Wondered if those bimbotic and childish behaviour is actually realised in reality. Seemed kinda stupid to me.
5: Brings up the total movies count to 6.
6: I need money!!
7: Looking foward to Sentosa outing. Heh.
8: Looking foward to Teachers' Concert. I wanna watch Mr Chay's "Menband" wahahahahahaha!!!
Monday, October 4
-2:02 pm
Yes! The bane of my life had finally disappeared. I sincerely hope that this will be last time flipping through my economics notes. The paper was a disaster, especially the essays. Knowing the contents but don't know how the hell to start and what to write is the worst scenario you can ever get. Bah! Pass, maybe if my mcqs and data response pull through. Mrs Chiw is damn worried for our class, can't blame her, seeing us getting only passing grades when the exams were damn near. Haha, oh well, it's over and done with. Tomorrow is biology spa. It's gonna be screwed as well. Did you know that the each and every of the J1 bio teachers took 2 hours to complete the very first, unmodified spa? How screwed can that be?! All right, so they modified it. But how are you gonna know if tomorrow's wouldn't be as bad. 2 hours for the entire thing when it is supposed to be done within 1 hr and 15 minutes? They are way way off. Audrey had a bad feeling for it as well as Wednesday's chemistry. This is bad.
Damn.
Saturday, October 2
-11:44 pm
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hmm... i'm so moderate... (-.-")
Friday, October 1
-4:03 pm
Economics is my beau from today till Monday. No more no less.
Seriously, if I don't get ok results for this promotional exams, I'm going to drop it. No point wasting my time over a stupid subject that I can get but can't do the exams for the life of me. No point at all. Biology today was quite ooookkk. I guess. Can do most of the stuff, but like Bel said, getting it right is totally another matter. My MCQs have already like 5 wrongs? Hmm, that's pretty discouraging eh? Haiz, if I can pass my GP and this biology paper (a A level pass that is), there shouldn't be any problem for me to get promoted. Not unless the school suddenly changed the bloody system. Gah.. I'm having a headache now. Sighs.
Anyone here can take away this confusion and denial that are revolving around me these past few weeks? This state of uncertainty is the worst. However, this is the only way I know I can protect myself.
Love is dangerous. You will need the courage to even face it, let alone brave through it. I'm in denial, reluctantly but happily so.
