Wednesday, November 29
-6:08 pm
"Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good. His love endures forever. Give thanks to the God of heaven. His love endures forever."-Psalms 136:1,26Yayness! I'm getting Dashboard Confessional's songs from yq as I'm typing now. Haha. I'm sick of my collection for now. Need new "blood". Maybe I should start listening to Power 98 or 987FM again to hunt for new blood. Oh and to keep myself updated with news. Feel so cut off from the world. -__-"
Went out to Geylang to have supper EARLY this morning haha. So fun. Never had the chance to go out there to eat. Sure I've eaten some stuff brought back by colleagues but to be there is a whole new set of experience. Hahaha. Was actually looking forward to see a certain group of people lining along the streets, but it was a disappointment (mixed with relief though). Maybe the streets are different. But the guys were saying something about a whole lot of them congregating at a carpark. So maybe they were around.. On retrospect, maybe it would be kinda scary to see them around. Who knows what they would do. Especially to the guys. Haha. As for me, I'm just glad that the guys were around. Got ma ta around, he should know what to do, if anything happens. Lols. Anyway, it seemed that the guys went there during orientation and post-orientation. Not sians ah? Maybe not if they had eaten different things, but hey, they frequent the same coffeeshops again and again. Go eat other stuff ma. I'm sure Geylang has alot more to offer other than tou jiang you tiao. ;]
Spent 10 bucks on supper. That's rather incredible la. Don't know how the dian xin we ate in all can amount to 40 bucks. They must have ordered expensive stuff. =\ And their deep fried stuff is really oily but can forgive la, it smelt nice. Heh. Don't think I ate $7 worth of dian xin lor. Sadded. But never mind that, I want to go back there for supper again. Hopefully can go changi to eat nasi lemak too. wahahahah. And see people too. :]
And Mav, you are welcome for the food.
Tuesday, November 28
-1:03 am
The 365th post.
Finally. Haha. Was wondering whenever will the day for this post come.
Anyways, back in hall to study for BS801. Since it was mostly A level biology stuff, there wasn't much to do except to refresh my memory. Haiz. It's a little boring. Maybe should have reconsider coming back down today. Could have caught an episode on House. I missed the show for 3 BLOODY weeks!! Argh. I need a good dose of House!! I miss his caustic remarks to his "ducklings". And actually maybe Chase and his Auzzie accent too. The only good looking (relatively) guy around. Oh well. Hopefully I can catch the rerun later this week. I really hope so.
Seems like writing letters have become a trend. Grouses, complains and questions all surfaced. We aren't as okay as we thought we are. Sad. And there I was, thinking to God why we face no trials from him. Because it would also mean He's shaping us. Now it's staring at me and I don't know how to deal with the whole thing. One step at a time I know. But it can be exasperating to not know how and what to do to straighten things out. I'm not looking for an idealise picture for us but one that I can live with. However, my expectations can be too high for what reality can really give. Gotta get down to earth. Only thing left to do it's just to pray for wisdom to do what's right and to depend on Him to lead the way for all of us.
On a lighter note, anyone has good Legolas romance to recommend? I'm in need of a good one which is COMPLETED. Haiz the few that are good and online got disrupted because the authors got writer block for the longest time or they simple lost interest. Sad sad. Not that I don't understand how they feel (after HW101), but it can be disappointing. And suddenly I've got this urge to watch LOTR all over again. As for reading it, eh, wait till I can find the books first ba. Tried twice to read the book but never got past the first 50 pages. The beginning can be really boring. Bleh.
To sleep. I need to clear away the stupid eye bags. =\
Sunday, November 19
-11:44 pm
Three words.
I don't know.
Thursday, November 16
-6:01 pm
"Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law." -Psalms 119:18I woke up today and the first thought that came to mind.
"OMG, TODAY IT'S MY FIRST UNI EXAMS!"
Perhaps not in caps but you get the point.
Not going to say (again) how fast it seemed to be but well, at least I can put 101 behind now. But I'm in such a dilemma now. Don't know whether to check the answers or not. If I do, I think I'll just feel very chui. I want to do well in that module. Please God, let me.
Aiyes, finally wrote that dreaded letter. I hope I get my points across. Bleh.
And I want to go shopping before that damn GST hike. A hike is still a hike, no matter how little it seems compared to other countries. Haiz. Haha, because of people like me that's why the government can't get enough people to spend money. All the money is going into the banks for savings.
Feel suay ku when talking about increasing wealth. Haha. I don't know how to go about doing it and don't really see the point to. (I know people will kill me for it.) Wealth is definitely good la. I do want it every other time. But FOR NOW, I don't really crave for it. Maybe because I'm taught money is the root of all evil (LOLs) or it's just that I don't have alot to spend on or I'm just used to spending within my own limits. So I may want to buy clothes and shoes and bags but too much of them around can be quite bothersome too. I don't like to throw things away. Hmm but then I like new stuff too. Just a little more than throwing things away. What a dilemma.
...
Ah well. Shall go for shopping after the exams.
Meanwhile back to some sleep and dinner before mugging again. -sighs-
Oh! Congrats to those who are finishing their Os and As this week. =]
Sunday, November 12
-8:55 pm
"For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding."- Colossians 1:9All right. I shall write letters.
Just thinking of it kinda puts me off. But what needs to be done must be done.
Shall do it tomorrow when I'm all nice and settled in my room.
Another reason to put off studying. Haha.
Oh well.
Someone just break my laptop's charger and I promise I'll really study very hard. I can't pull myself away from Sims 2 and youtube.
sighs.
Luckily my laptop's Sims 2 can't work and the hall's internet connection is damn slow.
So I can't play and youtube downloads damn slow.
Some kind of consolation.
And my female sim seems to get pregnant damn easily. The forums said that it is only a 60% chance she will get pregnant after every "try for baby". But dang it, she got pregnant after every time. There are like 1 teenager, 1 child and a baby coming along. Wonder if I should make her get the ultimate "need" lols. 15 children! Man, those with family aspirations are quite nuts. I know I can do cheat codes and all, but it's quite incredible to do all that. Crazy crazy.
I want to watch finish 1 litres of tears!!! It's damn sad can?
Bah.
Away with the exams!
And Mav, let's stop talking about antennas and such. Haha.
Thursday, November 9
-2:11 pm
Get to know yourself betterYour view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
What's your personality love style?Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
What type of personality do you have?Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.
Your Working StyleYou use your thinking to look for the principles underlying the sensory information that comes into awareness. As a result, you are logical, analytical, and objectively critical. You are not likely to be convinced by anything but reasoning based on solid facts.
While you like to organize facts and data, you prefer not to organize situations or people unless you must for the sake of your work. You can be intensely but quietly curious. Socially you may be rather shy except with your best friends. You sometimes become so absorbed with one of your interests that you can ignore of lose track of external circumstances.
You are somewhat quiet and reserved, although you can be quite talkative on a subject where you can apply your great storehouse of information. In everyday activities you are adaptable, except when one of your ruling principles is violated, at which point you stop adapting. You are good with your hands, and like sports and the outdoors, or anything that provides a wealth of information for your senses.
If you have developed your powers of observing the world around you, you will have a firm grasp on the realities of any situation, and show a great capacity for the important and unique facts of a situation. You are interested in how and why things work and are likely to be good at applied science, mechanics, or engineering. If you do not have technical or mechanical interests, you often use your talents to bring order out of unorganized facts. This ability can find expression in law, economics, marketing, sales, securities, or statistics.
You may rely so much on the logical approach of thinking that you overlook what other people care about and what you yourself care about. You may decide that something is not important, just because it isn't logical to care about it. If you always let your thinking suppress your feeling values, your feeling may build up pressure and find expression in inappropriate ways. Although good at analyzing what is wrong, you sometimes find it hard to express appreciation. But if you try, you will find it helpful on the job as well as in personal relationships.
You are in some danger of putting off decisions or of failing to follow through. One of your outstanding traits is economy of effort. This trait is an asset if you judge accurately how much effort is needed; then you do what the situation requires without fuss or lost motion. If you cannot judge accurately, or if you just don't bother, then nothing of importance gets done.
Ice Cream Cone TestHere is the analysis:
You are always willful and most of the time you are a stubborn person. However, you love to work with others and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.
The Four PaintingsThe first qualification that you want from your partner is:
Money: your partner has to be well-to-do.
The five-question personality testHere is the analysis:
Your ideal mate is gentle and sweet.
You always compare yourself with others.
You make your wishes too difficult to come true. Success depends on someone's faith in their ability. That's your attitudes towards success.
You think that if you like what you are and have, then no matter what, you will always be happy.
You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.
Psychological TestHere is the analysis:
You have a complicated personality.
How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: middle.
You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is medium.
Glass means fragile personality.
You are also down-to-earth.
You are an opportunist.
Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.
Which colors do you like most?Here is how you prioritize certain aspects of your life.
More important matters come first on the list below:
Friends and relationships
Marriage
Death
Passion
Career
Love TestHere is the analysis:
When it comes to love, you take your time and do not fall in love easily. You give 100% to your relationship and expect to receive 0% in return. If there is a problem in your relationship, you are able to confront it in an optimistic way and full of hope. You want to work it out right away, all by yourself. You need lots of reassurance in your relationship. You'd like to see your loved one every day, if possible. You accept your loved one the way they are. You don't expect him or her to change for you. When you love someone, you tend to stay in love for a long time.
All courtesy of quizbox.com
Wednesday, November 8
-2:00 pm
You know, this is probably the first time I'm bitching about someone I've known for over 10 years. In fact, almost everyone is.
Some people are totally disgusted by your change. Some bewildered. Me? I'm just totally disappointed. Because I've known it all along. Just thought that you have changed. But then time prove me wrong.
Lian ai zhi shang is the term given to you and your relative. We came to a conclusion that this was all likely due to genes. We really thought you were different, at least from her. Because you are thought to be more wise. I thought because of a previous experience, you had channeled all your energy into church. And I really saw the difference. And I was glad.
But it seemed that once the other was chosen, you had the idea that you have OFFICIALLY step down. Which is utter rubbish? What ever happened to your sense of responsibility? Have you forgotten that next year's committee is going to be a young and inexperience one? I know you will give the argument that we all came in young and inexperienced, but as the older ones, shouldn't we also shoulder the responsibility to guide them? We were expected to learn by ourselves, but that doesn't mean that they have to. If that is so, then no one should ever do things by looking at past examples. Everyone has to learn anyway right?
Off with TYS, off with researches, off with history why don't you?
Just because you are involved in so many things NOW, doesn't mean that you can shed off this one which is coming to a close. Shouldn't you leave behind some legacy? People respected you. But what you are doing now is stupid. And so maybe I have never been in a true relationship but then I don't think love will erode my sense of responsibility so fast that I'm not doing anything I'm supposed to do. Just because you want to get out of everything you have now and be in everything he is in doesn't mean you can don't do anything and think that everyone will just let you get by like that.
I wonder if we should talk to you. But to think of it now, I think we will just fu yan each other. And you will probably think that we won't understand the stress behind all the work you have to do. And we will think that you just don't know what your priorities are. At least for now.
What you tell UB is your business. Just don't paint us the wrong picture and you as the ultimate victim. But love is not always about objectivity right? For you I think it's like that. Everything is about how you feel.
I used to envy you. Because you had everything I wished that I could have. But now, no. I really love what I have now. All thanks to you, I know what I treasure the most. Looking at you, I wonder if these are really things that you want? Have you ever ask God's opinion? I don't know. You seem to know all the steps but do you carry them out? Most of the time I would always try to remember. Because I know if I just jump straight into things, somehow things will never go through smoothly. Perhaps you do. Perhaps God is building you up in ways that we cannot see. Just like someone else we know, in ways that through men's eyes, we will never understand.
I don't want to judge you. I don't like to judge because I don't like to be judged myself. But I want a definite answer from you. Because you own a answer to a lot of people.
Why the sudden change?
I hope you will know that you need to redeem yourself by doing, what is left, right. However, FYI, you have also been condemned. By people who used to trust you.
Friday, November 3
-12:34 pm
"But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light." - 1 Peter 2:9I skipped breakfast. Ate chips. And skipped lunch.
All right, I was SUPPOSED to get some decent lunch, ie pratas but the dark skies are looming over me now. It kills the appetite for pratas. Maybe I'll go get some wafer before leaving school. Just maybe. =p
Speaking of rain, it has been raining EVERYDAY. Remember how it was so blardy hot and hazy just a few weeks ago? The change now is drastic. I know it's the rainy season but.. I can't have my clothes dry in this way! Haha. Please God, let it let up once in a while? x)
Shan't talk about unhappy stuff - regarding a certain fellow. Just thinking about him ruin my day.
Roomie and I talked about Relative yesterday at dinner. So funny. It's always fun to talk about boys once in a while. But somehow I think I wanna talk about them most of time. Maybe that's how A felt back in secondary school - boy crazy! hahha. Nah, I don't think I'm as overtly excited about them as her. But it's a natural thing for girls to want to talk about them right?
Felt like I didn't contribute much to the project. =p and I think I'm pissing people off. Haiz. Feel stupid now. Cripes.
Wednesday, November 1
-11:52 am
Il Divo - Everytime I Look at YouI used to think that I was strong
I realise now I was wrong
Cause everytime I see your face
My mind becomes an empty space
And with you lying next to me
Feels like I can hardly breathe
I close my eyes
The moment I surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent and tenderly true
So lead me through tonight
But please turn out the light
Cause Im lost everytime I look at you
And in the morning when you go
Wake me gently so I’ll know
That loving you was not a dream
And whisper softly what it means to be with me
Then every moment we're apart
Will be a lifetime to my heart
I close my eyes
The moment I surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent and tenderly true
So lead me through tonight
But please turn out the light
Cause Im lost everytime I look at you
Lost everytime I look at youSnow Patrol - Make This Go On ForeverPlease don't let this turn into something it's not
I can only give you everything I've got
I can't be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could
All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right
The splintered mast I'm holding won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong
The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
The first kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water the way you taught me
To look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love
We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore?
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes
The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
The first kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water the way you taught me
To look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love
The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
The first kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water the way you taught me
To look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love
And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness
Please just save me from this darkness
And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness
Please just save me from this darknessJust thought the lyrics are beautiful =]
