lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Sunday, July 27
-11:31 pm
the way he argues about evolution, makes me think if he truly knows what are the mechanisms and facts of evolution. i couldn't really catch his points too. they seems too contradictory with what i've learnt about the theory.
i'm not saying that i agree with evolution - that we are evolved from monkeys/apes. that's really plain stupid anyway. if i'm not wrong, almost all animals' and insects' dna are pretty much similar. even up to 99% similar for some cases but yet we are still so different. why why why? there must be something that's setting humans and animals apart. that we are God's living images on earth.
macro evolution, no, i'll never agree. but micro evolution? maybe there's still a possibility.
his points don't make sense now, nor did they make sense that time when i first heard it. i've half a mind to ask him to do it in writing just so that i can make sense of what he's trying to say. maybe in the end i'll be the one in wrong but then it's also a possibility that he may be wrong too. we'll see.
Friday, July 25
-11:39 pm
Went for this sunday school teachers workshop. Well it's not exactly a workshop for teachers but more of a hmm teaching us how to use this certain publisher's materials to better teach the children. I think the rewards reaped this two evenings (4 hours) have been so much, I can't imagine how much it will be tomorrow. Wow.
prayers and preparation were two key items that the instructor stressed time and time again. teaching is not easy. you are building the foundations of a spiritual life for the children. they will be the ones who will lead the church in the future, if you don't do a good job now, then the future of the church is in perils. it's heavy responsibility but it's a rewarding job. (no i won't go into the teaching industry. teaching is not something that one can do everyday. i can't imagine seeing hellions everyday and every hour of my life. it's scary.) i salute to the teachings in the everyday school, but i think my calling is just within church. 24/7 teaching is just plain madness. so teach them right and help them grow strong. right now, we are just planting the seeds. as the years go, we can only give them water and fertilisers to grow sturdier, but then, they'll need to absorb all these to grow better. it's also up to them to want to grow better.
so for the time while we are with them, i only pray to help them to be better equipped for the world ahead.
i'm glad to be in the children ministry for now. :]
Monday, July 21
-11:13 pm
It's great. No matter what the critics say. Anything with Tony Leung inside will be great. :]
Saturday, July 19
-11:52 pm
I found two blogs tonight.
I hardly imagine they would have one, thought they are the kinds who keep their thoughts to themselves and well... because of their status.
The girl, though not very surprisingly, has rather complex feelings about the whole whole now. Haha. Well maturing girls tend to be that way. But she articulate her thoughts very abstractly, almost literature-ishly. Well done for her age. And she is really very different from the other girls, who though are older than her but never did seem to exhibit such maturity and depth. Or maybe it's just that I don't know them well yet. Hopefully there's a chance for that since it kinda irks me that some of them don't like us when we never do anything to them. Or maybe we really did, like looking down at them like some never-ever-will-grow-up kids. Conscending on our part, fucking irritated on theirs. So that's why the hatred.
The guy's... hmm. It's him. I can literally hear him speak on his blog. It's his voice and all haha. It's refreshing to see things from another side I guess. I like to hear both sides of things before I can really make some sort of decision. Guess this is one way to know now. And since psychology is all about trying to understanding everything in everyway, it's good practice to practise un-biasness. Perhaps perspectives will change, but then there are things they will never too.
I'm watching Grey's Anatomy now. It's... really different from House. Don't know if I'd blog this but Grey is drama (sex, betrayal, DRAMA with a capital D) in hospital settings while House is really about Murphy's Law running amok in medicine. It's totally different. While Grey's addictive because you want to follow the relationships (all the break-ups, reunions, break-ups and more reunions), House is addictive because of Gregory House and his truly atrocious bedside manners and his weird patients. I'm just tempted to watch Scrubs just to know what kind of medical comedy it is. Haha.
I thought how my ideal guy can be like too. Suddenly had an
Epiphany. haha.
Wednesday, July 16
-10:54 pm
Time is a hell of a player.
All these years, it is a long time to change many things. (I feel like an old lady saying this.)
So much has happened. I'm scared of how things may turn out.
Pretty scared shitless in fact.
But then again, I stress AGAIN, I may be over thinking stuff anyway. Everytime I blog about something about me going paranoia about any issue, it will just turn out to be nothing on anyone's side. Nothing at all.
On a brighter note, I went out with Bel-chan to look at our Levi's jeans. Just last week, I had thought I'll never get a pair of Levi's jeans. I never think twice about the hype. It's just another pair of damn over-rated jeans. But after trying today, the cutting is really NOT BAD. Haha. The material is comfortable too. No wonder it's expensive. :[ It's really really nice but I can't really bear to splurge all that money on a pair of jeans when all my current jeans don't even cost anything more than 60 bucks. -__- Most branded ones are just Dorothy Perkins and Esprit. Haha. I got them on sales so they are less than $60 okay. Ah well, if I get that job at RJ, then I'll get the jeans. :] HAHAHA.
Alan Soh should be kicked in his ass for pang-seh-ing us. -___-"
I think I saw xiaxue in Orchard today too. Haha. She's really small in size.
Wednesday, July 9
-12:08 am
I can't wait for school to start because that would mean:
1) FOC will FINALLY be over. Not super looking forward to it because well, since I'm not going to stay there anymore, it's feeling useless. And it's quite painful/guilty to see my in-charge's full of stress face because the rest of us aren't really helpful at all. Really tried to help but well, I'm not very interested most of the time.
2) Programming and transcribing for Joyce's projects will be done. And speaking of that, I really have to make myself reliable for the coding system. Which I have not done anything at all. I'm in really big trouble.
3) Will start to get regular income.
4) Probably will just be concentrating on God's work, be it in school or in church. I think it's the most fulfilling kind of job at this period of time. Maybe I just want to do them now to run away from hall's stuff but well... I need God now.
5) I'll get to see more familar faces around in school now that the guys are enrolled into Universities. Haha. I'm a senior. :]
We also celebrated Hester's birthday on Sunday. It was packed with people, her house. People from all over: Nan Hua to NIE. It was PACKED. Think she got plenty of presents too hahaha. Hope she likes the watch CO + Bel + Liz gave to her. I think it's damn nice la. Want one for myself too. :[ Now Bel wants me to buy presents for her too haha. But oh well, see how la. But anyway, hope Hester has a great day that time. :]
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HESTER!
Friday, July 4
-1:56 am
I just wanted to rant, write something.
Aiyes.
Transcribing an hour's long interview is tough work. Especially when you are trying to muck out words from a Singaporean, albeit a good one, accent. There are still words which somehow with our accent got minced and diced and i don't really know what the other person is trying to say.
Yitch's right about the tearing out your hair part.
Sighs. But tomorrow is a going to be all right because I'll get my weekly manga fix of Naruto and Bleach, I've already gotten my monthly's dosage of Nana which kinda has been draggy for the past few chapters. As if the author is trying to drag out days before (Oosaki) Nana's birthday which is exactly one year after the two Nanas met. Something big is going to happen next chapter. I seriously doubt it will end by then. She has already missed the 26/07/07 (7 in Japanese is nana) last year. Why ever rush? I don't think she will rush the ending by the next chapter. Too many things unresolved. She didn't explain when (Komaki) Nana gave birth, did she give birth to twins, whatever happen to Reira, whatever happen to Ren, why is young boy Ren's name Ren, whatever happened to Nana's mother, half-sister etc? TOO MANY unanswered questions lor. And those are just the tip of the ice-berg.
Yah manga rants.
Off to sleep now. I've been getting super restless in my sleep. Pray for me!
Tuesday, July 1
-11:08 pm
[on Amber's "cut-throat bitch" personality]
Wilson smiles (at Amber's actions).
House: You like that!
Wilson: It's annoying but she's good at it.
House: Wait a second. *eyes Wilson* This isn't just about the sex. You like her personality. You like that she's conniving. You like that she has no regard for consequences. You like that she can humiliate someone if it serves..... *stares at Wilson*
Wilson stares back.
House: Oh my god. You're sleeping with me.
Dang if that isn't the best thing I've heard on House yet.
