lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Saturday, October 29
-11:30 am
| You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine) |
You're both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.
You were born to be a doctor. |
LoL. I really doubt the brilliant part. Compassionate.. Maybe.
| You Are a Schoolgirl! |
You're not quite as wild as a "kogyaru", but with your short plaid skirt
and silly white socks, you're still a sexual fetish object.
You can usually be seen hanging out in the girly section of the video game places,
collecting photobooth stickers of you and your friends. You may not be as innocent as you look.
Did those vending machine panties once belong to you? |
SCHOOL GIRLS - SEXUAL FETISH OBJECT?!?!?!?! O_o *looks down at self and shakes head* Are school girls in Japan so.. sex-crazed? Or is it the men? Or it's just stereotypical thinking? I know this is not supposed to be new to me with all the manga I read, but I just wanna make a fuss out of it. Hahha.
| Your Brain's Pattern |
You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination. |
I can keep myself awake with all the imaginary conversations with people in my head. It's tiring to have not enough sleep every night..
| Slow and Steady |
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
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| Your Power Color Is Red-Orange |
At Your Highest:
You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.
At Your Lowest:
You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.
In Love:
You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.
How You're Attractive:
You are very affectionate and inspire trust.
Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Respected?" |
Thursday, October 20
-1:20 am
All right, I'm doing away with the password thingy. Kinda sick of it. Not like there are anymore to hide from people or to keep people away - not like mine is anymore damn interesting anyway. Just will put it on it the future if there's any need for it. [I highly doubt so.] Stupid server is not working again, template is out of sorts once more. sighs.
Almost all JC2 students that I know are making some sort of conclusion for their JC life. There are reflective ones, there are reminiscent ones, and there are those who can eloquently write out a few sentences that touched the cores of their readers. As much I like to be, I'm not good with prose. Wonder why did I ever want to do lit. Hahah. Point aside, it always sadden me when my feelings cannot translate out into words for people to understand. Maybe it was somehow/what understood but the full force of it never did come out. So when I see good prose, it gives me the impetus to copy their style. People may say that that's how one begins - by copying another's to give one the experience to develop his own.. But somehow I think it's some form of plagiarism.. Haha. I want so much to use it but the devil and angel in my heart will start their little verbal war and being the good little 'ole me, I listen to angel. =] Haha.
Well, all that was just to say that I don't think my little passage on farewell did any justice to the gratitude, humble-ness, joy, sadness, I felt for coming to and leaving SAJC. Well, no one is here by chance. The phrase struck me since day 1. It always warms me when I see it outside the general office as I entered the plaza every morning. How does it feels to not be part of SAJC physically anymore? As I have told everyone and I will say it here again, given the chance, I don't want to graduate. Or rather I wish time will stop here and now where everything is settled, all that are left are to study and relax. But life progresses.
In kindergarten - I played, cried and studied.
In primary school - I learnt to PE and to grumble about it, socialize, study a little to get good results. Generally mixed around with people like myself, hardly met anyone who were majorly different. Life was so peaceful and calm. Like a dragonfly touching the surface of water, causing hardly a ripple.
In secondary school - I learnt to study a bit more to get similar results, mixed around with people who together found our own identity and learnt how to accept them. Compromise was a lesson learnt in silence. Bitching was a result of clashed personalities and ideologies. Ah the wonders of Social Studies.. Not! Handled responsibilities that I thought were too heavy to carry initially, but nevertheless gave thanks for the opportunities. To love and lost..
In junior college - I finally learnt the meaning of 'mug' or rather given the honour to witness first-hand. Finding my own mind, met a whole lot of people who already have their own set of beliefs and values, have learnt to accept and mix them into mine. To love and lost. A little sneak peek to the world outside while finding my own way out of this rat-race.
It's going to be over within a month or two. Wonder what lies ahead. Practicality or interest? Someone help?
Saturday, October 15
-11:34 pm
Yups, so Farewell Assembly came and gone. Had it pronoun form [or whatever it is.] because well, it was really a significant event. After all, that was the last assembly I would ever get as a student. Last time to wear my uniform on a normal school day. Last chance to ever have a formal normal lesson in a SCHOOL. University is not counted. It's a last for a lot of things..
Frankly speaking, I'll miss SA. The lovely homely atmosphere. The lazy mid-afternoon breaks. The friendly cafeteria aunties and uncles. The air-conditioned classrooms. The breezy afternoons at the balcony when studying. The vandalized tables and walls. The stairways to the not-very-first-storey-nor-very-second-storey buildings. The powerful flushes in the toilets. The Jacob Ballas building. The CO practices. The mornings at cafe to sneak 15 minutes more of shut-eye. The bus ride to school. The PEs. The teachers. The friends. The morning prayers. The chapel. The "I'm Mrs Lim. Good morning Saints." [Although I really don't care about greeting her back. =P] I think there's so much more that I can just sit down here and spent the rest of the night typing each out. But no I won't, 'cause I'll need to sleep!! Haha. I guess it's an experience uniquely to SA but which goes to say that other schools also have their own cool points too. NJ has. =] Time really flies. All too fast for my liking. No, not because A levels are coming but time in school just zips away like that. And like cornelius' nick: to think I'm just starting to enjoy it. Wonder how life will be if JC life is 4 years long? Ultimate cool? Or just plain tiring? Relationships with the various people one has met now will surely be different - time can change a lot of things. Hmm, but if JC is to stretch for four years, the guys will definitely lose out with NS and stuff. Oh well.
Hmm, I admit that on my first day in SAJC, I was filled with trepidation - strangers, unfamiliar environment, a whole new life out there. True, there were Yukina, Sook, Nick and Ben but I couldn't always depend on them.. And so the curiousity and the supressed eagerness to want to know more pushed me forward. My first and last morning worship left me with good impression and the first staff I'd met in SAJC was actually Mr Silas. I was told he was the only jew around and was not afraid to say so. Haha. But anyways, at that time I never thought that I'll be so attached to the school. Would definitely stare at that person who suggested such a weird prediction with my brows lifted. [Not that I can carry off that look well.] Now, well, can't do much now, except hoping that fond memories won't fade off too soon. Photos [courtesy of wee long] of the school, the snippets they provide in the Photo History Book, the add-ons in Nostalgia and photos taken during farewell assembly and the very last civics are all we are left with SAJC. Next year it's no more ours, present and ex-saints. Few years down the road, SAJC @ 2 Malan Road will probably cease to exist. Thinking of that makes me tear in my heart. Looking forward to Potong Pasir? Not really, 'cause there are no memories except for the possible tears and laughters in the new and enlarged hall.
So very tired now. I can't put to words what I feel thoroughout this entire week, what with farewell assembly, with last class outing with 04S62, with the pressure to study. It's just all jumbled up and I wish so much for someone to help me write down. Haha. Oh well, more studying tomorrow. Gotta go sleep now. Zzzz..
Once a Saint, Always a Saint.
Thursday, October 6
-3:37 pm
Oh great. My nose just have to pick up germs and get itself blocked with all sorts of mucus at this point of time. And the body had to work overtime to stage battles with those nasty microscopic entities. And I'm so tired that I can't get myself to study. Gah. And it feels like everyone is way past revision and head on to.. i dunno madness? I'm pretty terrified. Haha. Working their butts off, trying to know every single thing that the A levels had to offer for the past 20 years. But I AM NOT. It seemed.. mindless. All these cramming that we had to do. Kind of stupid if 'mugging' is the only thing that we bring away from school which is supposed to empower one with knowledge to deal with the world. Okay maybe that was too idealistic but you get the drift. Or maybe it's just the Singapore system which I wouldn't be the first to lament about.
First post for October. Heaps of people's birthdays are coming up and I'm so going to be broke. So many things to buy. Money, money why don't you just fall down from the heavens above? Wonder how I'm going to have the money to spend for prom and again I wonder who I will see there.. Eh.. I think my priorities are a little wrong. Let's just get started with the As first shall we?
And I just saw Ellyn online. Wonder of wonders. Haha. Considering how long she hasn't been online or maybe we just missed the chance. And speaking of that, I think our date, along with Maria is way overdue. Should I? Hmm.. To contemplate the mysteries of socializing is never my forte. Ah well. I think I will. After some time. Procrastination has always been THE forte anyway. [But that's bad. ='( ]
TV shows, especially American's are great sources of music. Too bad, I missed too many to add on to my mp3 collection. Sighs. I want chocolate.. =)
