Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
yourstruly
Janice.
twenteen two. pisces.
Child of God.
Hosanna. blessed.
HSS Psy. CCF.
OH Events.
Wednesday, October 31
-1:02 am
It's the time of the year again.
Wake up, go school, eat, study, sleep, eat, study, sleep.
Hai. No life. >.<
Everytime around this period I think I'll just blog about the same thing. But one good thing is in the horizon - I'm almost finished with the survey data entry stuff! Muahahaha. But I'm sure another batch is going to come in soon. Sucks. Well, at least it's income.
And next year, there will be lesser responsibilities and perhaps a chance for traveling! Again. Heh. 2008 looks good for now.
Sunday, October 28
-10:34 pm
Suddenly thought that (in the video) Hoobastank practiced the song just so that they can rob that poor shopkeeper. Like precisely at which verse then the girl will wake up and all that.
Hee.
-1:46 am
"He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake." Psalms 23:3
Always for His glory. Not mine. Even for all my self-righteousness.
Wednesday, October 24
-5:09 pm
"Good"
He really thinks we are just some workers for him. Just because he's the supposed boss doesn't mean he can't appreciate us. I know he gave the cakes but what the hell, it's not the big gestures that matter, it's the SMALL ones ya know? One word of "THANKS" is enough to justify my sacrificed time to teach the kids AGAIN. I thought I can have the year off already. Always think you can solve this kind of things last minute is it? I sure as hell wish I can prove you wrong.
You already know right from the start that he was going into the army soon. Why can't you make arrangements earlier? Why can't you just start looking and persuading people to join the ministry instead of waiting for last minute and still look for people who obviously wants out and then you kanna rejection, then you look for people like me who really would like some relief from teaching nice but still a little ungrateful kids. Why don't you just try teaching kids for a change? Take this opportunity to learn how to see things from their perspective.
Then you can write materials SUITABLE for them. And not rely on people to help you change everything AGAIN. We are repeating the same stuff again and again. People are looking for applications in life. NOT RULES to do this and that. Please learn to listen other people's opinions and what they want. NOT what YOU THINK we need.
I know teaching is a full time job. I know the sacrifice is great. And I appreciate all the full time teachers who had taught since what 20 years ago? I have learnt a great deal from them. My biblical knowledge are all due to their wonderful teaching. BUT I'm still not ready to make that sacrifice yet. I had agreed to teach now because it's a rotation thing, so I can get respite for a few months while going for classes - I still like learning. For all I know, it's probably going to be a permanent thing now. I should just quit choir for good too.
Please look for more people. It's expanding. I don't believe there aren't anyone out there who doesn't fit the job.
My life revolves around God yes. But involving in every ministry of the church until I forgot or don't even have time to worship Him properly? No.
It sucks. Now I might as well take leave from choir since I won't be doing any singing for now. And now, I'll prolly get niam for not participating in choir.
Rarh. I hate myself for being so subservient and so kind-hearted.
Tuesday, October 23
-12:48 am
They killed Sara. And now they went on hiatus.
Thanks Fox.
It's pouring cats and dogs now. October sure has been a weird weather month. Sunny and bright at times but pouring like siao at other times. Haiz, the climate sure is changing fast and steady.
No longer can we have predictable weathers. I hate that!
XP
Sunday, October 21
-10:45 pm
They all have their considerations, especially when it concerns matter such as going overseas for exchanges and internships. Although they really want to have a shot at it, but too many things tied them up.
It's such a pity to see them giving up the chance, when knowing they have quite a high chance of getting it. Worried if things back home here will change should they leave. Time and tide wait for no man. If they aren't here to have some control, then everything could just spiral out of control. Or maybe they are contented to settle for less.
Yet for those who actually took the leap of faith, we questioned them. Do they really have the confidence that things will stay the same, that all will be ripe for harvest in the end? Or we suspect that probably they don't care as much for the other.
So evil is the heart of man. Haha.
But in anyway, these are all just a matter of perceptions. No one is right or wrong. We all have different priorities in life. Different commitments will have different decision making.
The spree I'd joined has finally closed. Hopefully the person will send in the order soon. AND hopefully my clothes is not OOS! I'll be sooooo sad if it does. =[
Friday, October 19
-8:41 pm
It's a full-blown manga!!!!!!!!!! Oh man!
I can't believe it when Chrys showed me this. Once I opened the book, I can't stop! Except for sleep and walking. It's a manga-ised version of the gospels. AND IT'S FANTASTIC!
Jesus is too handsome and too cool though. Haha.
But who say He can't be. ^.^
With this manga version, suddenly the gospels doesn't seem so boring and disconnected. Because the 4 books are being written by different men and for different audiences, some of the events are mentioned while some are not. This book consolidates everything together and everything went so smoothly. From the beginning to the end, Jesus's declaration of Himself-v as Son of God has become so real.
My vivid imagination really does me some good at times. :] I can really imagine how things go, how Jesus felt, how He smile, laugh or cry like everyone else. Suddenly He felt so close and real, like a much needed reminder of His presence. Then I was so filled with the Spirit and happiness and had some internal dialogue/worship with Jesus. Is this what it meant to worship Him "in spirit and in truth"? If so, then I think it felt wonderful. Instantly the world becomes a little surreal.
Rose-coloured eyes I assure you. But it's not the bad kind. Haha.
I'm just so filled with happiness, joy, happiness, and all kinds of happiness vocabulary you can find. =] It's practically tingling in my very bones as I'm writing this.
Whee spiritual high!
A lot of things went into my mind though. Like to lay my life down for Him, to give Him the control of my life. I'm willing but it's hard to concede the control. One step at a time, I had told Him. Guide me to accept the way of life He is giving to me. I want to learn submission and the joy of Him taking care of all my needs. I don't know what how things are going to be like in the future. I have plans and I will tell people those if they ask. But of course is still subject to changes. =]
Don't when, why, how things will go. But I'm sure everything will be the best in Him.
Amen.
Thursday, October 18
-11:17 am
See the difference? Oh man. Look at what 8 years can do to a man! Haha. I love his scruffiness in House! This week has no new episode of House. I'm bored..
Tuesday, October 16
-3:55 pm
I'm going to join a spree!
(yes, like what Tsuzuki-san is saying <--) My first online purchase. Hahaha. We should do something to commemorate this day. Because I had once declared (I think) that I would never try buying anything online as I couldn't try and see how the stuff look on me.
But things changed. :]
I just hope I don't regret buying it, or else I think I'll just stop online shopping altogether. Eh maybe. I was just thinking last night if "real" shopping ever phase out, since online shopping is on such a rampage now. (Every other person is opening an online shop. -_-) But I guess not. There are definitely people who are like me - want to try the clothes first. Some more, when purchased the shop, we have this delusion that the quality of the clothes is still way better than those online. (However, I think that they are all the same.) In the end, it's still the enjoyment ba? Where you just fleet around different shops, try clothes and then buy on impulse. The joy of getting the stuff right there and then in your hands.
Online shopping can be a hassle. Shipments, OOS items, the online-shopkeepers, money issues, etc etc. TROUBLESOME in one word. But you can get clothes other people may not have.
Well, let's just see how this goes. Anyone get any advice to look out for on these online sprees? ^-^
Friday, October 12
-6:07 pm
DR SARA TANCREDI (PRISON BREAK) IS DEAD.
I'M STILL FUMING OVER IT.
ALL THOSE BUILD-UP FOR NOTHING.
Poor Michael. =[
We had a fun presentation today though. Did a programme thingy, very different from the usual droning on of information. Think Dr Tan has the most kick out of it. Haha. Well, that done, all we have to do is the report!
All these work for a 3AU course. Man, it sucks. But what the professor mentioned was true. We can't just study just for the sake to get the degree and bringing away nothing of all those we learnt. We should bring away issues that set us thinking and not just smoking our way through to get an A grade. (Though getting an A grade is indeed very hard. But still..) I can understand his ku xin to help us get a good university education.
But sometimes, there aren't enough justification of effort. --> that will only come after I see my final grade. Then will I feel a very good sense of accomplishment.
Aiyes.
I still can't get over Fox killed Sara. -_-
Tuesday, October 9
-8:24 pm
Happy Birthday Roomie!
Just when you cross the 20 year old threshold, I'm going to go over to the 21st in 5 months time. This is a little depressing. -__-" But well, may you stay beautiful always! Haha.
So today, I HAVE WASTED ANOTHER DAY. Yes, another one, if you include yesterday. Rarh. I'm so going to step up on all the things I'm supposed to finish and then study like siao. When time is on your side, one doesn't feel the urge to study at all. And when time is not, I rush like mad and keep stressing out by thinking that there's not enough time. (when clearly, there are still plenty of it.)
Can't wait for the PA project to finish. Bleh. Hopefully we'll do well. I have half a mind to minor in it. Along with my Japanese modules. If things go well, MAYBE I'll take JLPT3 next year, just so that I can take Jap Level 6. I'm crazy I know, but well, since I can get free lessons then why not.
I should start meeting up with people. If not, once the exams take a choke hold on us, we can do nothing but wait till December.
Some one lug my ass outta NTU!
Oh and I think I dreamt of HUNK(S) last night! HAHAHAHAHAHA. Can't remember the face(s), just have the impression that they were HUNK(S). Hahaha. Along with ab-licious bodies. Damn, I'm spending too much time on fictionpress.com - as much as I like the stories there, all good stories have their guys with these damn brilliant bods, killer smiles and off-the-chart intelligence. Honestly, how many can you find in this world? -wry-
Monday, October 8
-1:11 am
Another useless weekend at home.
I don't mind it. Gives me rest from all the hectic-ness of the week.
Meetings to go and deadlines to meet. See already also very sian. Aiyes, bring me back to the time after PSLE when we just play games to while away the time.
=p
Friday, October 5
-11:30 pm
I missed CO!
Argh. Went for the SCO concert in school today and not regretting missing my cognitive lecture for the first half hour at all. (Can't really understand anyway.) Sighs. My eyes were fixated on the liuqin players only lor. And I missed the instrument in my hand.
Yes I'm not a good player but to be part of a big group and create music is so wonderful. I missed the bonds and friendships. It makes me wanna join some group again!! Haha.
But I think my OH group is enough for now. =p They are too hyperactive.
Ministerial Forum was interesting.
Thursday, October 4
-12:15 am
Love Song for #1 -Corrinne May
In the twinkling stars that dance like fireflies In the blushing fruit that hangs upon the vine In the face of a baby as he forms his first smile I see you
In the whisper of the wind’s soft lullaby In the laughter and the roar of the rushing tide In the song of the sparrow as he takes his first flight I hear you
Why do you hide among the nameless and forgotten Why do you walk along these long forsaken roads Calling to me in the hungry and the homeless Calling me to water your thirst
So I’ll give you my heart and my song In a world where so much is right but so much is wrong Your love is my beginning and I know it won’t be too long Till I see you
Why do you hide among the nameless and forgotten Why do you walk along these long forsaken roads Calling to me in the hungry and the homeless Calling me to water your thirst
So I’ll give you my heart and my song In a world where so much is right but so much is wrong Your love is my beginning and I know it won’t be too long Till I see you I hear you I love you
Wednesday, October 3
-6:23 pm
I'm hungry, tired and sleepy.
But nothing comes into my mind for my HA101 assignment!!! I don't know what else to write other than power. The lecturer said to talk about bureaucracy structure but I don't know how to elaborate on it! I must finish asap or else I can't eat dinner!! (Set limit to myself or else I'll never complete anything. I have got to many shows to catch.)
Arghhh.
All my tests are over. Tuition assignments are over. I have already planned what to study to catch up and be on time for my daily revision. So that I can watch all my shows with no guilt at all. Rarh. I have like 2 animes and 5 shows to catch every week. Let's not even talk about the backlog. That's 6 hours of tv. Not a lot but when the videos aren't downloading super quickly, it takes up alot of time. And I can't study very well with the laptop on. -__-
How the heck did my holiday go without me completing much? It's as much a mystery for me and my unconscious.
