lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Wednesday, September 26
-11:23 pm
Feels like I'm mucking in deep shit.
I know procrastination is a big flaw. Never had I thought things are going to pile like nobody's business, till I've so many things to clear. All because of unforeseen circumstances.
To clear them one by one is not going to be a solution.
But I need just ONE GOOD NIGHT SLEEP
(JUST ONE) and work like mad for one or two full days. 'Cause then I can have a clear head and finish all the shit. At least finish all those around me that are due within the week or month.
Thank God the month is finishing. I can see the horizons when some of them finish their course in my calender. Whee!
I wanna read books. Anything fictional.
Tuesday, September 25
-10:22 pm
Went cycling today! Felt so good to exercise after half a year!
Kid you not.
It had been a while since I've last cycled or even go to ECP. The weather was perfect today! The blue of the sky, the rustle of the wind, and the salt of the sea were a welcoming change from the stale air of the air-con rooms that are so prevalent. Felt so energised!
But my cycling skills still suck. Haiz. I think it's just the height of the bike. All the small-size adult bikes are still slightly too tall for me. I don't wanna to downgrade to a kiddy bike! (That will be too small for me! -_- What a dilemma.) Anyway, still cycled quite happily because it felt so free. Free from the world and all its stress. Just me and the bike and the wind in my face. So nice.
Got myself burnt in the process though. Now the skin feels prickly. Hope it doesn't peel.. Shall go sleep soon. It's tiring after a whole day.
And I finished Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows! It really keeps one turning the pages. I couldn't wait to see how Harry kills Voldermort. But well, since I can't really remember what the other books were talking about, had to glide over some details. Harry's character is quite.. weird. I don't know. It doesn't seem like he's quite stable. Maybe 'cause part of Voldermort is in him so that what makes him so easily angered at times. True, all the events in the past six years in his life at Hogwarts were to prepare him for this battle, had mould him to who he is, but he doesn't seem to have a central core which he wants to hold on. He's been finicky of what he wants to be. One moment he can get angry over Dumbledore for being him, and then he can be forgiving. No consistencies as I had learnt in personality psychology.
But then he
IS a teenager. I guess, that's normal. I'm sure the author tried to portray him as vividly, as close to reality as possible. After all he is thrust into an unusual situation and very unstable environment.
And personality psychology's test is on monday.
I'M SO DEAD!
Saturday, September 22
-11:34 am
New skin!
I don't know how long the old one was with me already. More than a year definitely. But thought I should have some changes once in a while.
The current skin is black too. But well, I like
black. =]
Friday, September 21
-4:38 pm
It's over!
RECESS WEEK IS HERE!But my holidays only start after tonight's meeting. Sian. No, actually after this sunday. When all my responsibilities are done. Tuition is like almost gone. He's mostly on his own, nothing much to do but to nag at him to check and check his work. At least he FINALLY sense the urgency to know concepts and not rely on memory work. =p
Test today was alright. Could do most based on some memory work and common sense. (And I was just commenting on my tutee's need to understand concepts. Such a hypocrite!) But then, i remembered someone used to say that Economics was also about common sense. And I flunked Econs. -__- Ah well, the percentage for each question is quite small anyway. 78 questions for 15%. 0.02% for each question. Hmm. All right la.
Things to do during the holidays:
1) Sleep MORE.2) Study for HP204 test.3) Finish FF12.4) Outing with Psy people.5) Shopping with YS.6) Finish the survey thingy. (Nah I don't think so)7) Finish up with all the videos. I don't think one week is enough. =[
-12:27 am
I'm so dead. I don't know anything about sensory memory and the test is tomorrow.
15%.
Hopefully there is
NO essay questions at all. Because he wants to enjoy his holidays! Please
NO essays!!!
Tuesday, September 18
-8:51 pm
Prison Break Season 3 is out in the Big US of A! More Michael Scofield! But no Sara. =\
And next week, House Season 4 is going to be on air! More Gregory House! But I wonder about the 3 musketeers.
I feel like dying from information overload. All thanks to 3 tests this week. And Abnormal Psychology has to be so... informative. Thanks huh. Lucky Forensic Science isn't that bad. Haiz. And then Cognition Psychology. Grrrr.. After this week. I must last till this week.
All will be sunshine-y in October.
Recess week!! Please come faster but crawl please after getting here.
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Had a nice talk with YC today. Actually it's more of me complaining about everything and anything under the sun. P was right. All we know is how to find problems but not discuss about the solutions. We know where is the problem and how serious the consequences can be. Yet, we can't do anything about it. Because after all, it's still not up to us to do anything. Are we able to change anything? I don't know. Seeing how fellowship is now, it seems that everyone is discourage or too busy with other commitments. We were in identity closure, and then into identity crisis 'cause we wanted to more, we wanted to break out of this mould they had cast us in. However now, honestly, I'm afraid of the resolution.
Because the conclusion could be..
It's always time to put words/thoughts into actions, yet no one, other than the Holy Spirit is prodding me to go ahead. Hard for me to do stuff without physical encouragement. ARGH! I should change!
Someone bring me go shopping! I want to collect my Gelare mooncakes! I want a new bag, shoes and change of wardrobe! Rarh.
I should go back to my books.
Sunday, September 16
-10:33 pm
Okay, maybe she isn't that great after all. After all the fiasco, it's.. hmmm.
Well, just have to look out for whose toes we are treading on now I guess.
And PA is.... I don't know.
Maybe it's just the topic we are doing. It's a little too controversial. It brings out who we are and how we think about things.
Well...... It'll be a challenge to work together. I feel.
Thursday, September 13
-12:16 am
My tao-tao for Open House 2008 is impressive! I think it's going to be a challenge working for her. And to work on an event of such grand scale. Everything is still in its infancy. If all the ideas take off, Open House 2008 is going to be one crazy event to look out for.
This is probably my opportunity to actually look seriously into myself about responsibility. It's not about going faithful for lessons anymore. But to take up a position and answering for it. I don't know my potential for it. But I think it's a divine chance of a shot. Perhaps this is a trial or perhaps this is a trap to leave God.
I don't know.
So I shall need to learn to lean on Him. Consciously and clingy-ly.
With OH, with tuition, with my increasing workload, with the want to earn a bit more money to go at least for summer exchange, with the want to go cruise, I need a detail plan in my life. Haha. Yet I'm someone who don't do well with plans. I think. Things just change on the spot, might as well just plan some guidelines. =p
Taking life as it is. God-centered it must be. And all things shall be added unto me.
Tuesday, September 11
-10:16 pm
I think one just can't watch too much "Whose Line Is It Anyway?" in one day.
You will laugh till your stomach hurts.
My friend once told me that laughing continuously for an hour is equivalent to running one round of the track. I had thought it was impossible to do so and would rather run one round than to laugh one hour.
I still think that running one round is better than laughing one hour straight.
But maybe watching Whose line can seriously make me laugh for one hour straight.
I'm still feeling the effects of laughing too much.
It's too tiring.
Saturday, September 8
-10:32 pm
Whee! We had funfair in church today! It's fun but in a totally different way.
We had a cookie baking marathon! Seriously unlike other years when we had to take care of the game stores. Whew. That was VERY tiring. But this cookie baking thing? It's out of the world. I take off my hat to the other 4 girls who had baked continuously for the past 2 days.
With their prelims and promos at the back of their minds. I'm so sorry and feel extremely guilty for not doing much. Had to ying chou friends and family who had come down. Honestly, you can ask me to do alot of things but cooking is a little out of my domain. I can stir, whisk and set cookies in the oven. But to decide whether they are edible. Hmmm.. Good question.
Nonetheless, I caught up soon enough. =]
I think all our legs are ripe for ripping off. The lactic acid (hey I still remember my A level Biology! :]) we had built up is grossly off the scales. Haha.
Anyway, sales was slow at the first hour. We had thought the cookies would fly off the racks as soon as the funfair started but apparently it didn't. -_- Was rather discouraged and we all agreed to stop production for a while. Meanwhile we had to ask the aunties to help us promote! haha. So funny. But within half an hour, orders started to come through and they came in fast. So scary. There we were on the second level, trying to cope with the orders and the other two girls at the ground level trying to take reservations and selling whatever we had there. Today was just really literally "two cups of flour, two cups of sugar, 1 teaspoon of baking powder/soda, 2 eggs - one with egg yolk, one without egg yolk, vanilla extract/almond extract/coffee powder (we used our nose to smell whether it's enough :]), mix! whisk! onto the tray!" it's almost like a factory line. =_=
Now we are thinking of having a baking competition or some sort for the fellowship. The guys can be our guinea pigs. Heh.
I'm proud of us girls! We had done a great job today! Praise the Lord for pulling us through today. As you had done for Him today, I'm sure He will bless you in your studies! Don't worry too much. He's not there for nothing.
Alrights, on to sunday school preparation.
