Monday, October 30
-12:36 am
"I will praise You, O LORD, with my whole heart; I will tell of all Your marvelous works. "- Psalm 9:1Relationships are not about pauses, said P. I agree. It saddens me to see one of them just being in such a state. Whatever went wrong? Perhaps you guys have alot on mind, but.. aren't the both of you supposed to work them out? Hmm, I guess, it's all about wait and see now. Will be praying for all of you..
As for the other two, haiz. What can I say? Just hope you guys know what you are doing and STICK to it. If any results are supposed to come out from it.
AND I can't believe they actually said that. It's not as though relationships can be curbed on commands. If it can, it would have been started million of years ago. (figure of speech) I'd bet people will still be on arranged marriage in this time and age. Yet, some are still astonished that it does still occur in some cultures in the world NOW. Not everyone can find the partner within the church but not everyone can too find someone outside of it. Just shun qi zi ran ba. I know it's for the sake of the whole group. But I think that both must be mature in handling the delicate matters should a not-so-good ending occur. I think should just let everyone know. No point hiding it since words will spread. However, whoever wants to say anything should know their position and know how much they should say.
One statement: Never start anything unless you know the consequences and is willing to bear them. This applies to everything in life. Don't be stupid and think that things will just disappear by itself. God doesn't let sin disappear by itself did he? He could have right? But that would have been just too easy I think.
Friday, October 27
-11:22 am
"Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on."
- Philippians 3:12People, you must catch "Death Note"!!!
It's really very good. At least the movie is not as wordy as the manga - which puts me off. (But now I want to read the manga liao =\ haha) Put in Mav's words, it's really cool to see how the author sequence in all the drama and suspense and make it all flow. You would have expected some mistake to be made but nope, there were none. Goes to show how genius works. Come to think of it, Japan mangakas have this obsession with geniuses to save the world, to learn some amazing techniques in sports, to solve crimes etc.. Wonder why. Are they in a need of saving? And from what? Hmm...
Caught up with the 62 girls. In the end only, Hes, Bel, Liz and me turned up. Haiz, always like that.. Ah well, people get more and more busy as we grow up.
Gave out exam goodie bags on wednesday too. Wah kao. It's damn tiring sia. But we managed to give out to all doors of hall 9 in under 3 hours! What an amazing feat! Haha. But alot of thanks to the guys la. They helped us carry most of the load. And there were only 3 of them. So ke lian. Should have taken some photographs to see the load we were distributing man. Over 500 packages. Each bag was probably about 2kg plus. Or maybe even more. SOME GUY wanted to distribute to the girls floors but was SHY to do it lor. Wah lau. Haha. In the end I did most of the knocking while he just transported the bags for me to give to the residents. The few who got your doors knocked personally by him should feel lucky! wahaha.
After the hols, we will probably get something from Cat. =]
Otsukaresama minna-san!
Can't wait for the exams to be over and done with. Sians. Stuck with studying for now. Luckily there aren't much to do now, with all the activities winding down.. Even having the laptop doesn't seem much of a distraction. It's TV's turn to seduce me!! Argh!
Snow: He's the guy (in xian's filmloop on Hosanna blog) with the big water bottle and the caption "Mr Hunk '06" Hahahaha. He was in Beth's group.
Bel: I shall go spoil myself with the manga! Haha.
Sunday, October 22
-9:56 pm
"A man finds joy in giving an apt reply and how good is a timely word!" - Proverbs 15:23Hmmm.. Was it an eventful week?
All rights la. Just that the week seemed like it went to a crawl. Time had passed by very slow. Haha.
But saturday was a very surprising day. On many accounts. Haha.
It was my cousin's wedding yesterday. Handsome groom and pretty bride. She sure changed alot since the last time I saw her. FYI, my cousin's the groom. Heh. Well the wedding ceremony was held at my church.. Based on some people's accounts last week, I was a little disgruntled that SOMEONE didn't turn up. It wasn't surprising, but it was still unprofessional I would say. Who would have thought he is so petty. True, harsh words were exchanged but I guess someone has to reflect on the kind of attitude he was giving too. Hey, people had paid for the service, and the groom was an old friend if not, an old church mate, or even the very least, a brother in christ, is this kind of attitude worthy enough to be called a christian? A leader? Bah. I had have been ashamed to be called one with that kind of attitude.
Adults.
Anyway, so I was watching the whole thing from the gallery then I saw a familiar back. It was ZC from hall's biz mag! Haha. So coincidental. I was like eh, that guy look familiar. Apparently he was thinking the same thing too when he looked up to my side. Hah, he got confirmation when I waved at him. Turned out that he was also family. From the other side. I'm the mother's side cousin while he is cousin from the father's side. LOLs. So we are cousins by marriage. What are the odds man.
You know him too roomie. The guy with the boyish look from accountancy. Haha.
Also found out that he went for the canoeing event sometime back in June!! Omg. Haha. I didn't go because of the SACO's interview. He went because YY asked him to go. Just to have some fun he said. So I went to look back at the photos which M put up on filmloop. Caught many of his candid pictures. Kinda interesting to look at the photos once again now that you know this person is in it. Prolly would have know him if I'd gone for canoeing. Then I would have know one more soul in hall other then my roomie. Oh well. ( the pictures made me regret some for not going. Looked fun man. I was just darn lazy that day and after a whole night of ton-ing, it was pretty exhausting too.)
One more potential kaki for dinner as he said. Haha. He didn't go for hall's FOC so didn't know many people. Fine by him he said but I just think that it handicaps us some. A factor to experience hall life is also by the people we know. So when we don't know anyone, people just walk past you, sometimes with only a vague smile. And even there are those whom you had had dinner with before ONCE, don't remember who you are. It's a rather depressing feeling. I'm not saying that I have to know everyone from every block. But people within the same block should give some recognition to each other right?
Hmm should go study now.
Sunday, October 15
-12:08 am
Everywhere I go, I'm learning more about my sovereign Lord. =]
To copy a slogan from MacDonald.
"I'm loving it!"
-Beams-
Anyways, while preparing for tomorrow's children worship story and then reflecting on today's tuition session, I realised that I'm not very cut out for teaching. I lack patience. I lack good teaching methods. I lack humour. (see I'm using what I've learnt =]) But I'm brimming with goodwill. Think that's not enough. And then, it got me thinking whether I'm really to want to go into early childhood education. I will just ruined the children's chances of getting a good education while having a fun time. Who will like a teacher who is authoritarian? Nowadays, it's more about caring teaching. Gone were the good old days where authoritarian teaching form the core of getting disciplined children. It's not the most effective, but I do think they give the fastest results. And one must exert tremendous effort to stay in the authoritative zone, so if one's not used to such style, it'll be a chore..
Don't know if this is an opportunity to learn or is this an opportunity to see what I'm not good at. I guess it will be more appropriate to learn more rather then giving it up without any effort right? I hate it when people just give up without a try, so I must too, give a try to give me self a chance.
-nods-
It's not in me to give up unless I've put in all my effort to gain some level of mastery in a skill. For the sake of perseverence, I shall do it!
And that applies to all but one aspect of my life. For now.
Friday, October 13
-10:21 pm
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."- Jeremiah 29:11Aiyoh, so suay today. :( Don't like Friday the 13. Make me lose my ez-link card. SAAAAAAAAAAAD. I'm losing everynow and then since coming to NTU. This is bad. Is this some sign for me to take care of all things that are in my hands now? Especially things which are more abstract like opportunities leading to other good things? My pastor has this saying that: "Be thankful that the things you have lost now, are in comparison minor to the things you may lose in the future. This may be God's way to tell you to be mindful of your belongings so that you will not lose other more important things." Perhaps perhaps.
Thought I learnt my lesson well when I had nearly lost my student card back in sec 1. I'd always put my ez-link card in the wallet so that the card wouldn't be lost since it's less likely that I would lose the wallet. Since it's so big. Haiz, so complacent now. Ah well, it is indeed a lesson well learnt. Almost $50 gone just to buy a new card, top up the value and doing the replacement card. It seriously suck. Now I'm never taking it out other than giving the bus conductor to check it.
Anyway, did a RP survey today which was the shortest I have ever done in the whole programme. Haha. Did it within 15 mins? All I'd got to do was to fill in daily expressions. Lols. How simple can that be? But it turned out to be quite a headache 'cause who can really remember what they say all the time? I had to wreck my brain a little and to think of what I say when I'm feeling certain emotions. Discussed at the absolute "weirdness" of the survey. Haha. Like I'd said, it wasn't as easy as we thought it would be. ;) Haha.
Went for lunch and got to know WJ's surprise birthday gift from his cell group. Haha. So cool man. I also want a room revamp! But then, think it requires tons of effort! Some more, room revamp can be very expensive and I like my room now. I just need a table, a lamb and a proper cupboard to store all my books and photos and stuff. =] Then we met up with C and J for project.
Gah! We were unproductive for the first 45 mins! Kept being diverted by nonsense and more nonsense. Not that it's not funny mind you. Haha. Just that we couldn't focus on the project which was by itself confusing. I think that dampened the mood some. Made a joke out of one of the examples given by the lecturer and that became like our example of the day. Haiyo, it's not very funny lor. Anyways, we finally did clear everything under "flaws". And that took us like a whole lot of time lor. Whew.
Went to get NeWater with fellow hall biz mag people. Took a back ride on the pickup. It was fun and windy there but my hair was flying all around and it felt like my ear was accumulating dirt from the air! Yuck. Well, gave a drive for the NP primers who were there to collect their newater too. Haiyo, why they never think of getting a transport down too? Well, it allowed C to meet up with her sec school juniors. It's a good thing. =] who knows what they can bring about in the future? ('cause they are planning something la.) Establishing connections between people is always good. Just don't bring in the wrong people will do. Haha.
Hard work today. Good jobs guys!
Now thinking whether to sign up the survey thingy which C wants us to do. 'cause her instructions aren't corresponding to the ones given by the email. Hmm. Maybe that's why some people are so hesitant in taking part. But it's really easy money leh. Can keep a certain percentage for myself too. Why not? Hmm, hope things will smooth out fine.
Wednesday, October 11
-9:29 pm
"My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him."- Psalms 62:1Argh, feel that I'm lagging behind in my studies. Seems like there are so much to do. And I'm always procrastinating la. Stupid project. Don't know it's because it's hard or it is because I just don't know my work. Bleh.
Getting my first test back tomorrow. Hopefully it will be fine though I don't think it can be too good by any standards. Hai.
And tomorrow is C's and WJ's birthday! Haha. It's like YS's and KL's birthday. Exactly one week before theirs. So funny. Man, I think I know too many October babies liao! How come there are so many around in my life ah? Hmm, will buy brownies for them after class to celebrate haha. Wanted to go out to watch movie tomorrow during the 4 hours break but couldn't find a good timing. Darn. I really want to go out and watch movies!!! I'm movie-deprived!
Because of a certain someone who kept pang sehing me.
Anyone up for "You, me and Dupree", "World Trade Centre", "Miami Vice", and "Little Ms Sunshine"? Please find me!! I'm feel like I'm in the little world of NTU, cut off from the world! Gah!
Monday, October 9
-12:23 am
"He who guards his lips guards his life, but he who speaks rashly will come to ruin."- Proverbs 13:3At the moment, things don't look great for the people up on top. We are losing trust and perspective here. Biasness perhaps. Already learnt how to say 2 phrases liao. Wonder how detrimental it's going to be in the future. Already wondering how the future is going to be like. Interestingly, only people on our level are making noise. Are the others so empathetic about it that they have already cleaned their hands off? Or for the sake of the whole community, it's just best to keep our tongues to ourselves? Guess that is the question for us all now.
Ruin will come for us all. We need to step back and have a look now. I'm reflecting..
But then, when news of what they have done and doing reached me, the whole cycle just start again. Haiz. What rubbish.
As for today, the whole thing is over and done with. I can't deny that some burden are lifted off, but another will probably just be placed on my already bruised shoulders. I felt it. Almost immediately after the election. We'll face many challenges ahead and I can only pray for God's guidence through it all. With or without the mentors.
On a lighter note, I went shopping with LW on saturday! =] Spent my first earnings in don't know how many months. Haha. On an Outfitter Girl's pants. It's almost similar to the one I wanted to get from OP but it's just way cheaper to tempt me to buy it. Haha. It was a good trip even though I didn't manage to get any tops. But it's okay. Save money for future uses. And the Wisma underground is currently under construction/renovation. Kinda inconvenient lor. Have to go all the way up then down again. We were thinking that the business for the shops down are going to be down for quite a while. Maybe not too down, but will be affected lor. And forever 21 seemed to have cut down a level. If I'm not wrong, their changing rooms used to be on second level? Did a shop rented a space there or something?
And the haze was really bad over the past few days! Goodness, it hasn't been so bad since my days in primary school! And that is about 7 years ago! Talk about long. Thank God that the wind came and blew away all those dirty particles. PSI of 150 on saturday night to PSI of 37 on sunday evening. What a drastic change. Hope no one is getting too sick from the stupid haze.
Oh yah, caught Forbidden City too, like last last week? Goodness, it was so long ago and now I'm blogging about it. It's fabulous! It was my first real musical in the esplanade and I was blown by it. =] Great settings, great music, great singers. Few minor mistakes here and there but who really cares when the whole production was moving like gears on oil. It's really great! Can't believe they had staged it in London too! Must have been a great experiences for all of them.
okay sleep is beckoning me, although it is a little too hot to sleep. bleh.
Friday, October 6
-12:45 pm
"Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal." - Isaiah 26:4Three years in blogging and I haven't chalked up to one year's worth of post. How incredible can that be? I know as compared to other people, I'm probably better off but it's still wow. Nothing much la, just something I noted while signing in to blog.
Anyway, it's FREAKING october! How has the year passed by so quickly? There I was at the beginning of the year, all eager to start work and then consequently bored by the idea of it - because I wasn't doing much anyway. Couldn't read and couldn't work. In such a dilemma. So after 4 months of not-so-labourious work, off to London and HK. Man, those were the most incredible 3 weeks of my life. Someone please just bring me back to London. I miss that place so much that I'm yearning to go back next year. But then, I've no money la. Even if I'm to scrimp and save, it's prolly not enough to really enjoy myself there fully. Never mind, I'll still have the years ahead of me to travel. =]
Then rot at home for the next few months, want to find work also cannot because school was starting soon. Then when school start, the odd feelings of being disoriented and fresh hit me. Lonely in the first week but made friends in the second week when tutorials kicked in. Thank God. Now here I am, with a group so odd that I wonder how did we ever got together. Haha. Not odd in the bad sense but well, doubt anyone can figure out how people from different tutorial groups can actually make friends with each other when there are people who still don't know who are in their tutorial groups. Maybe it's just the psych majors who are so nice. ;)
Well, this is my first post for october and who is to blame? TESTS from all around. Only HP101 was well done even though I was slightly pissed by so many questions on chapter 1 which I didn't read at all. (thought not important what, introduction leh. wah lao) The rest can just sink down into the watery graves of USS Arizona and never resurface in my life. But sadly, that will never happen. Aiyes, let's just see what will happen in the next 2 weeks. Please let the bell-curves be very nice, even if it's not a big consolation but that's my only hope for this mid-semester assessment. Now I know I need to chiong for HP102 and HP 805. Those are manageable I feel, just that I have neglected them too much to focus on HP101. 102 is deceiving lor. Thought it's just a rather simple introductory course to statistics in psy, who knew it can come up with such crap load of questions!! Argh. Whatever, now I know not to underestimate it. That probably goes to say for Genes. Although I'd taken Bio As, that doesn't mean shitload if there are people who truly mug out for that elective because they never took the As.
All right heading home now. Can't wait for Goong to start. No matter what YS say about JJH, he's still mine.
And I have loads of things to buy.
